Russell

I know what you are going through. I lost my mother Sept. 8, 2008. Since that day everything is going wrong for me. I had a nerves beakdown in Oct. Had to find a part time job. Do't get enough money from disable. Than my aunt die Dec.21, 2008. I got sick last mon. ended up in the hospital. They don't know what wrong with me. Have not work in over a week. Tomorrow going for help. On wed. seeing a special doctor. Thing are so bad I do not want to leave the house just want to stay in bed and watch TV. My friends cook for me and bring me food. They go to the food pantry and get my food or go to the store and buy it. Never through I would end up this way. Take all the help your boss will give you. I hope you do not end up like me. I will keep you in my prays. GOD BLESS, Russell

I know what you are going through. I lost my mother Sept. 8, 2008 and my aunt Dec.21, 2008. Things have not been easly for me. Everything is going wrong. Here is a web sit you can go to and lit a candle on line. www.gratefulness.org/candles/enter.cfm?!=eng. Also you can have a memory bear made from a pice of cloths. Go to google.com and type in memory bears made from cloths. A lot of web sit will come. Look at them all and pick the bear you like the best. Also keep coming to this web sit. There are a lot of nice people here. They have help me a lot. It is nice to have a place to go and talk to people. I'm all alone. No friends and all my family love out of state. Just take it 1 day at a time. I will pray for you. GOD BLESS, Russell

Nicole, I'm not your age. But I lost my mother on sept.8,2008. Tried to find things to do for yourself. I like to watch DVD's and color. I just take it 1 day at a time. I spend a lot of time at home I.have no friends and all my fsmily is out of state. My aunt die on Dec. 21,2008. I did not have the money to go to her furneal. Things have been going wrong for me. I'm tired of people telling me God does not give you more than you can hanld. I tried to just take it 1 day at a time and do something for me. God Bless, Russell Wentzloff e-mail address:wentzloff@aol.com ,

Joe, could you please e-mail it to me. Here is my e-mail address:wentzloff@aol.com Thanks, Russell

I would love to spend an hour with my mother. I feel I got cheater out of time with her. They called me at work on fri Sept. 5, 2008 and told me my mother tuch a turn for the worst. I left work righ away. I was with my mother from fri till she die on mon sept.8,2008. On sat. Sept. 6 she went into a comba/ I stayed they and talk to her and held her hand. On sund sept. 7 watch the bears game with her. She was a big bears fan. I old her what was going on and scream and yelled. I now know what my mother went through when my father die 14 years ago. She never got over his death. I will never get over my mother death. Everything is going wrong for me since my mother die. Than to make it worst, my aunt die on Dec. 21,2008. Which was her motherd birthday whish is my grandmother. I'm sure glad I found this web sit. All the people here are very nice and have help me a lot. Thanks for all your prays and best whises, God Bless, Russell

Thanks for telling me about the memory bears. The hospic by me does not make them. So I went to google.com, type in memroy bears made from cloths. It came up with a lot of web sit. They cost $75.00 up to $200.00 or $300.00 dollars. they take 2 weeks to 2 or 3 months to be made. There is none close to me in Cicero, il. I will be saving my money to'get one made. I'm on disapable and don't have much money. But I' m looking for a part time job. I just take it 1 day at a time. I spend a lot of time on this web sit. The people here are very nice and help me a lot. I will pray for you all. God Bless, Russell

I know what you are going through. Ilost my mother Sept.8, 2008. Since than everything is going wrong. Than my aunt die Dec.21, 2008. 2 in one year. I can't take it any more. I'm so tired of people telling me God does not give you more than you can handley. I just can't take it any more. All I want to do is die. I can't find the help I need. each day is getting worst the day before. I just don't know what to do. God Bless, Russell

I'm having my church take care of my service after I die. I wrote down on paper what I wanted and gave it to my pastor. My wake is at church with the service right after. The padtor told me the church even has a grave for me. My church has help me so much. I could not have live without the church. I have no family close by. All out of state. I hope this helps. God Bless, Russell

I know what you are going through. Things are so bad I don't want to leave my apt. All I want to do is stay in bed and sleep, watch TV, and watch DVD. I can get DVD from netflix put right in my mailbox. Watch them and put them back in my mailbox. I can order food over the computer from peapod. So I call in sick to work. Sometimes I stay home all week. I never though I would end up this way. My mother die Sept. 8, 2008. So it only been a lttle over 4 months. I tuch me 2 month to start doing this. I just can't take it anymore. I will pray for you and hope you do not get as bad as me. GOD BLESS, Russell

I feel so sorry for all your lost. I know what you are going throu, lost my mother Sept.8, 2008 and my Aunt Dec.21,2008. I I just found this web sit Jan. 14, 2009. I wish I knew about it sooner. I have no friends. All y family is out of state. I spend alot of time on this web sit. I'm haveing a memory bear made out of a dress of my mother. I we keep it on my bed. At night I hold it while I will sleep. I just take it 1 day at a time. Hope this help. I will pray for you. GOD BLESS, Russell

I lost my mother on Sept. 8'. 2008. I'm having a very hard time. I tuch care of my mother for all most 14 years. My mother and I move back to her house in Spe movet,2007. My younger brother live ther. He got her to kick me out in March of 2008. I moved in with 2 people who I through were my friends. It did not work. They did nothing but steal from me. I got a lawyer to break the least. I got to move out on Dec.13,2008. Than my car broke on Sept.23 and could not be fix. I had a nerves break down on Oct.1,2008. I was in the hospital till Oct.31. I got a new job on Nov.4,2008. My brother got the house and the apt. buliding. I got to take things out of the house. My Aunt die on Dec.21,2008. I have not gotten over my mothers dead and now my Aunt .My brother got the house and apt. bulding. I got to take what I wanted from the house. things are so bad I do not want to get out of bed or go to work. I just want to stay in bed and watch TV and Movie DVD. I can get DVD from Netflie. They come right to my mail box. I people to come over with food and I work at Jewel. I read 20 books about heaven since my mother die. Now I do not want to read any more. I have trouble reading my portals of pray, dialy bread and Bible. All I did is cried. I'm very lucky I found this web sit. I spend alot of time hear. I have trouble sleeping. It takes me along time to fall asleep. Than I sleep 1 or 2 hours and wake up. So than I go to this web sit. I need all the help I can get. Please prey for me. I lost over 100 lbs. before mymother dies. I gain it all back plus more. I just want to eat. People are always comming over with food. Thanks for any help you can give me. GOD BLESS, Russell A. Wentzloff

Karen, I feel so sorry for you. j,lost my mother on Sept. 8,2008. I just had 1 service. I could not go through 3 service. Than my aunt die Dec.21,2008. Her service was Jan.3,2009. I could not go because it was out of state. My prays are with you. Just take it 1 day at a time. I get a lot of help from my church. Hopes this helps. Don't know what else to say. God Bless, Russell