Thank you, Deb, for your response. I am so glad that I've found a safe place to talk about my mom and my grief; I know it will help.
I do trust in God, and my faith is the only thing getting me through right now. Sometimes I catch myself saying, "Poor Mom," when I think about how much she suffered while she battled cancer. But then I remind myself, No, it is poor me (and the rest of us who have to go on without her). She is at peace now, no longer suffering, and she has everything that she needs. She is the lucky one...I can't even imagine how wonderful it is for her right now.
I know that I'll be with her again one day, and that is comforting, but I do so miss her now.
Deb, I am so sorry for your loss. I pray that God will comfort us and give us the strength to carry on without our precious mothers. (((hugs)))