KATPILOT

I am married to an angel who even though she has left her body, lives within me for all time.

Like so many members here and we would not be unless we truly loved someone who has left, I believed I had found the one true love of my life and am a firm believer in fate. I understand that everything happens for a reason and every step we take leads us to what is suppose to be. With Kathy, I had so much fun. We did so much that today I realize I have no regrets about not having done things. We were only married for fourteen years and she made it to 51. I was just over ten years older yet she taught me more than I ever knew possible. I only knew stress in my carreer and anger came easy. . Kathy changed that in me and taught me more than I ever thought possible.

I learned from her. She made me a better person. I fell in love with her the day we first met. Some call it magic. I call it fate. I live in the house we shared together surrounded by the beauty that she is.

Kathy had only four months to find out she had cancer (soft tissue sarcoma) untill she was gone. I often ask "why her, not me?" I am only still alive because of Hospice of the Valley and the tools they gave me to survive. Now just over three years have past and I find more happy days than sad. I cry a little less at night. I look harder for the beauty that surrounds me and plan to enjoy it till we're together again.

And adding to this story my feelings of fate has brought me to a new love for Kathy has led me to Patty and my journey has made me a person more worthy who can love yet again and onto a new level.