Alex565

Thank you Kayc, Thank you for your advice, I'm gonna keep coming here for right now, And if it doesn't get better I will find a counselor. Yes It was pretty tough Kayc Dad was told that he had 30 days at the very best with medical help to live, so he chose too come home and die without outside help. Mom was a little different she suffered a stroke about two weeks before she died, Of course that took away her communication skills. so yeah two funerals in 45 days was a little much. I don't normally suffer from depression, so I'm guessing that it's from grief, I just feel lost or empty. the counselor did like said help the first week and after that was almost not human anymore, no emotions, no life. So I was like no I can't do this crap lol.

So sorry for your loss, I agree its a roller coaster ride. its been 11 months since I lost dad too cancer, and I lost mom 40 days later too cancer. Both had metastasized lung cancer, it was really a short battle for both the parents, dad lived about 16 months after being diagnosed, And mom about 10 months. The grief has been almost overwhelming now almost a year later, I have gone through grief counseling online, and that did help for almost a week I started feeling almost normal again lol. Mom was the support system for the family, i feel alone most of the time, Can anyone offer any advice on a new support system. thanks and bless all of y'all Alex