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Em

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  • Your relationship to the individual who died
    Daughter
  • Date of Death
    8th March 2015
  • Name/Location of Hospice if they were involved:
    NA

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  • Your gender
    Female
  • Location (city, state)
    London
  1. Hi everyone, I wanted to firstly apologise for how long it's taken me to respond to all your kind words and honesty; I was out of the country. hollowheart, I'm so sorry for the experience you had; I can only assure you that you couldn't have known otherwise (however, I do also know how hard it is to truly believe this). Ceili I want to wish you a belated happy birthday and I hope it was as ok as it can be in the end. We've had Christmas and birthdays without my dad and they've been very difficult. I'm hoping that as time goes on, these milestones will become easier to bear, for all of us. And kayc and MartyT, thank you for sharing your experiences and wisdom with me. I'm sorry for all of your losses, and I hope you're all as well as can be.
  2. I'm new here so I apologise if this is a little rambling...My dad died in March of a heart attack. He was only 60. My mother was away on holiday and I, only living 30 minutes away, was trying to keep an eye on him. He called me in the evening and sounded a bit breathless, but assured me that he just had flu and wanted to go to bed. I offered countless times to come back and take care of him, but he insisted that he was ok. That was the last conversation I had with him. I went round the next morning to check on him and found his body on the floor. I don't really know how to deal with this, even after ten months. I barely remember last year. I think I've been in a state of complete shock. I am in therapy because I have terrible flashbacks to finding him, but I feel like things are just getting worse. I feel so guilty all the time, like if I'd just gone to check on him I could have saved him. Is this normal? I thought that things might get better, but all that seems to have happened is that I am better at pretending I'm ok. I don't want to worry my family with this. I just miss him so much. He was my best friend. I really wish I could find a way to speak to him, to tell him how sorry I am that this happened.
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