On June 23rd this year, I watched my grandma die. I stood by her hospital bedside as they took her off life support. It took 3 minutes before her heart stopped beating.
She was my best friend. The only person in my family that didn't drive me insane. She was more of a mother to me than my own mother was.
She was healthy. I talked to her two days before her accident. I wish I had known that would be my last time ever talking to her. She had a terrible accident where she fell and hit her head and severely injured her brain to the point where she was pronounced brain dead the next day.
I have so many great memories with her, but the only memory I can think of is the one where I watched the life fade out of her. I can't get the image out of my head of watching her eyes open after 3 days of not opening and watching them slowly go out of focus, to watching her jaw drop and her mouth moving after they pronounced her dead.
I can't get the image out of my head, and I don't know what to do. It's been over a month and it's all I can think about ever.
How do I stop this?