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Thank you Kayc for the wonderful advice. I am sorry for your loss of your husband. I have been going to grief counseling and I am going to try group therapy next week. Today is a little better day or at least I haven't cried, yet..... I know I need to find a new normal in my life. I find myself sad at everything, my kids being grown up and on there own even though i am so proud of the people they have become, childhood memories and so on. Thank you for writing to me and please keep in touch.

Hi everyone, My mom died June 2nd. I knew she wasn't feeling well a week before she died. My parents live a few states away from me, but my husband and I were planning on visiting the following week and driving my parents to Colorado to see my son. My family was there to help support my dad and help make decisions. It was hard as i am sure you all know. I left after 4 days to return to work, my sister stayed an extra week. I started having severe anxiety and panic attacks which is what I kept focusing on although I tried to get back to my usual routine. My dad came to visit with me July 3rd and we still did end up going on our trip to Colorado because he thought it would be good for him. The following week we had a memorial at my house for my mom. On that Tuesday my dad went to visit my sister in Washington for a few weeks before returning to his home. I had started feeling less anxiety and panic attacks thanks to medicine, but then depression set in terribly. I have constant memories just washes over me. I can hear a song, feel the wind blow, see a certain street...and I feel like I am at that moment for but a second and then it leaves and i want it back for real. My children are adults in there 20s and live away from home my son lives out of state and I miss them so much although we text all the time and send silly pictures. I just cannot get excited about anything I have that pit in my stomach that overcomes me. I feel hopeless and alone because no one can understand how I feel. Has anybody else experienced this? How long does it take to feel a little better. I will definitely take "a little" How did you cope? Thanks, Very Sad