I am so lost without her. Most days I make it through and feel okay, but there is always a lingering feeling of helplessness. My mom passed this past march of lung cancer caused by a gene mutation. I lost my dad when I was 4 to cancer as well, I am now 19 with a 22 year old brother. Mom used a website to communicate with people going through the same thing as her and they became so important in her life, that is kind of what I am looking for. Just people to talk to who know what I am going through. I usually read these forums but never say much, most of that due to the fact that it took a long time to get the email verifying this account. Anyway, hopefully I get some responses from people who want to share their experience. My mom was my absolute best friend, we did basically everything together and I knew no matter what I could tell her anything, I still can. It feels like the longer she is gone (physically gone) I get scared I am losing her all over again because I don't have those moments that happened just yesterday or a week ago like I did right after she passed. I have to hold in my heart that she is with me because I know she is. Thank you guys for reading this!