Hi,
My dad passed away 5 days ago from lung cancer which metastatic to brain. He had been diagnosed almost 2 years ago but 3 weeks ago we found out he had metastatic. Before this time we werent spending much of a time. My parents were divorced 25 years ago. Father was distanced to us. But during his sickness I took care of everything. Hospital time, doctoe visits, chemo etc.. now hes gone. I have lots of "what if" in my head. His face always come to my mind. I was little anxious person now I feel like I had major panic attacks. I also fear of getting cancer or someone I love gets it. I cant handle an another lost. I dont fear of death. I fear of pain some one plz help