Justyaaveraggurl

I am so sorry for your lost. My dad passed away suddenly the same way. He was here one day and gone the next. Very unexpected. Not having closure and being able to say goodbye is tough. I try to focus on the good times we had, our relationship and love we had. Though I couldn't say good bye I find comfort in knowing that he knew how much I loved him.

I can so relate to your lost. I lost by Dad 2 years ago to COPD. I do the same thing from time to time, listen to his old voicemail just to hear his voice. I happened to have saved a voicemail he left on my last birthday before he passed, wishing me happy Birthday and telling me how much he loves me. I am grateful to have that. I'm so sorry you are having a difficult time moving forward. Don't rush it, Take your time. I think it just come naturally with time. Your Mom sounds like she was a wonderful caring person. I imagine she would want you to be happy, keep cherishing the family you do have left and enjoy life to the fullest. That's what I tell myself when I find myself stuck in what I call "the moment of the loss of him" I know that's what he would want for me.

@AB3 I agree that you should try to focus on getting through the rough periods one day at time. Your pain is too deep right now to look down the road as far how life will be for you. Right now it will be very difficult to see any good there. So just focus on one day at time. You are deeply in my thoughts.