Hi Solaeris,
I read your post and felt a need to respond as I relate so much to the 'too many to handle' tag. I just lost my uncle (a second Dad to me) last week, my best friend a month prior, my Dad a year ago this Friday and my cousin (like a brother) 16mos ago. I can't help but feel anger and resentment - the typical 'why me' - at the amount of loss that has been placed on my lap. This last one of my Uncle was the only 'expected' one as my Uncle had a terminal diagnosis but we thought we had months; meanwhile we only had 7 days. The grief is overwhelming and almost impossible to process as it is muddled with the others. Feeling paralyzed and exhausted. That said, so thankful for these forums as to me, there is nothing like someone else 'getting it' and knowing what this feels like. I have many supports but none of whom truly 'get it'. Knowing that others are riding a similar wave is comforting, although devastating that we are in this position. Ride safe Solaeris, know you have friends riding with you!
