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I lost my best friend (she was like a sister) on 2/14/15 after her 2nd battle with breast cancer. I have known her all my life because she grew up in the house next door and was 2 when I was born. Although we knew she had metastatic breast cancer this time, we never really thought she wouldn't beat it. It was only two weeks prior to her death that doctors threw in the towel and said nothing else could be done. The chemo was killing her faster than the cancer. In the wake of her death, there is a divide in her family. All of the dysfunction is pouring out. Her two children (daughter 18, and son 10) now live apart as they have different fathers. The daughter is living with the deceased's boyfriend of 3 years. The boy is with his father. Her remaining siblings are in turmoil trying to settle her affairs. Much to everyone's dismay, she did not have things in order. There is a power struggle regarding the boy's father allowing him to continue to stay with the boyfriend and daughter. Everyone is taking sides. It is a mess. I am lost because I feel useless in helping with anything. While I was a 2nd daughter to her mom, and a 2nd sister to her closest brother, now that she is gone, it seems like my value is too. Wives of the brothers are attached to the daughter and seem to be feeding the animosity with the boys father. I am trying not to take sides while trying to smooth the relationships during this transition. I know all of the people involved and am close to most. It is very difficult for me. I feel like if I was truly her sister, my thoughts, feelings and opinions would mean something; but since I am not blood related, I feel like I have been tossed aside. It is very painful, as I am already struggling with the grief of losing my best friend, and now I am losing some of the other people. Of course, in the past, this would be something I would spend hours discussing with her! Just wondered if anyone else has had this happen.