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I know this is a random loss topic but I cannot cope with all that I have lost lately due to human deaths, pet deaths, and a break up. The icing on the cake was getting an eviction notice last night which stated that we needed to leave our home in 10 days. My grandfather bought this home 50 years ago. When he passed away he didn't put the house in the will and my mom had to fight her brother's for it. They placed a new mortgage on the house and yadda yadda yadda, it was foreclosed on. I've lived here since I was a baby. Through everything else I've gone through lately, this home was all that I had left. It was my safe haven. The only place I found comfort in. I cannot even begin to explain my devastation and what this has done to me. I can't breathe. I can't eat. I can't think. I feel so alone and so lost. Is there anyone else who has gone through this who is able to tell me their own experience and sadness?

My mom died November 24th, 2015. She died of cancer after being in the hospital for 6 weeks. She was only 45. She had a stroke prior to the cancer diagnosis and wasn't able to communicate at the time of her death. I was her power of attorney. Right after my mom died, I moved to another state. I moved back to my hometown. I quit my job and moved in with family friends and totally started over. The hardest part of all of this was packing up my moms stuff and placing it in storage. I haven't been quite ready to go through it so this was the easiest solution. In a couple of weeks, I have to go back and get everything from the storage unit. In addition, I'm picking up my moms ashes. She was cremated by the state due to lack of funds. Im not going alone however, I'm dreading everything. I haven't spoken much about her death because I'm just trying to cope with life without her. Those around me are open to "talking about it", but Im just not quite ready to talk about how I feel beyond my fear that I too will get cancer. I try to ignore my feelings but often find myself crying myself to sleep and not wanting to talk to anyone about it. My closest friend knows better and tells me not to shut everyone out. I have a tendency to throw myself into work and shut everyone out and use the excuse of "Im just working a lot" when in reality I'm working a lot to forget. Has anyone else struggled with talking about a parents death?