I Feel So Alone.

[Amber.Elizabeth]

I'm Amber, I recently lost my Grandmother, nanny, June 25. She passed at home with the help of Hospice. They treated her so well.

I just feel so alone. Everyone told me that time will heal this pain and in time it'll get better but how much time? I feel like it just gets worse. I miss her so much and I don't want to talk to my family because I know they hurt too, they really don't need my pain too.

It just hurts so much, to know that I will never be able to hold her hand, or have a conversation with her, she's irreplaceable. I could just really use someone.

[kayc]

Amber Elizabeth,

I'm so sorry you lost nanny. June was not that long ago...you will always miss and remember her, and of course she's irreplaceable. I'm afraid it takes way more time than we'd like but it's also different for everyone so no one can answer how much time. As the shock wears off and reality sets in, it often does feel harder, but eventually we get more used to our new existence.

It might be good to talk to your family about it, they may be feeling the same way and wishing they had someone to share about it. It helps to know there's someone that understands and cares. It's good to let it out and not hold it in, so if you try to talk to your family and feel resistance, you can always share here. It would help to get a grief counselor too to help you through this. They're trained to do just that and very helpful.

[enna]

Hi Amber,

I am so very sorry that you have lost your Grandmother, but so glad that she could be at home with family and have the help of Hospice.

Grief has no time limit. We hear over and over that “it takes as long as it takes.”

When we lose someone significant to us we have such a hard time rapping our minds around it. It is good to know something about the grief process. It is good to know that it is okay to hurt and to wish our loved one was still here.

Please do not be afraid to talk to your family. Yes, they are hurting but they just might want that opportunity to talk about what she meant to them also.

I am glad that you found this place. We understand and we have listening hearts and we also know that talking helps to heal.

The two links below might help you to understand the grief process.

Anne

Understanding the Grieving Process

Grief: Understanding the Process

[Amber.Elizabeth]

Thank you so much Kayc and Anne I think I am going to talk to a family member.

Anne, you're right, it's so hard to grasp the reality of death. I always thought that death was death, it was easy to understand but now that she's not here it's just so hard. Thank you so much for the links and your help it really means a lot.