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Two Songs Of Love


Kakalina

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I wrote the first song just before we learned my beloved Virgil was dying. I wrote the second two weeks after his diagnosis and one week before he died. I just felt the need to share them as he is the only one who has ever heard them. Of course, all I can show you are the lyrics.

Yesterdays

How did it happen,

Why did we change,

When did we wake up

And find we were strangers

The love and the laughter

Well they've seen us through

Yet when was the last time

We said , " I love you"

So long, so long, so long together

I don't know where you stop

Or where I begin

So long, so long, so long together

We made it this far

That makes us winners

And so here we are love

Wrinkled and grey

Not many tomorrow's

But oh, those yesterdays

Our yesterdays, those yesterdays

"Let Me In"

I can feel your pain, let me in

I know your hurting and scared let me in

I just want to touch you

And show you how much you,

Mean to me while I still can.

Don't turn away let me in,

Hear what I say let me in.

You've lived in your world

And I've lived in mine

But darling we haven't

Got very much time.

I'm always here, holding you near

We can face this fear, let me in.

Together we can face this

Let me in.

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Very beautifully written. I wish your song was on youtube so I could hear it.

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Thank you that is nice of you to say Kay.

I had my very first dream about him last night. It was wonderful and terrible at the same time. For when I woke up and realized it was a dream my heart broke all over again. Sometimes I don't think I can stand this.

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Beautiful heart-to-heart writing. Thank you for letting us hear with our hearts, while wishing we could the music with our ears. No doubt each of us hears the music in our imagination a bit differently, yet put together, I believe what we hear would be lovely, and hopefully, pleasing to you.

Carrie

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And here is the latest, I really like this one.

Once upon a time , I loved a man

Once upon a time, a man loved me

Once upon a time, there was an us

There was a we.

Once upon a time, there was laughter

Once upon a time, there was a dream,

Once upon time, there was a rainbow

We chased after -

Once upon a time, there was love,

Once upon a time, there was forever

Once upon a time, there was we there was us

Once upon a time, once upon a time

Once upon a time .. . there was love.

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Dear Kakalina,

Thank you for sharing with us again. I encourage you to write, and to share whenever and as often as you'd like. Your love still lives; you yourself are keeping it alive. You carry it within your heart. As long as someone remembers the love, the love lives. That thought is not an original one, but I cling to it myself.

Carrie

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I love that! I wish I could hear it.

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  • 2 weeks later...

Here is the latest, sort of bluesy with a staccato beat: Hope you like it.

Started to go somewhere today
But I got lost along the way
Cause you weren’t there to guide me;

Thought that I was forgettin’ somethin’
Stared about but there was nothin’
Then I looked around with open eyes,
and that was when I realized
What’s missing was you beside me.

I feel a part of me is missin’
I watch for hours and find I listen
For the sound of your footstep on the stair
I strain to hear and then I start
To look around with racing heart
But you’re not there.

I pray to see your face each night
I reach around turn off the light
Still we’re apart
It’s really hard for me to face
Your pillow and your empty place
My broken heart.

Started to go somewhere today
I feel so lost I think I’ll stay, At home and dream of you.

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I hope you get these published someday so we can hear them!

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I just returned from a week in Honolulu where I took my beloved's ashes. He wanted them there in the ocean. It was a day fraught with laughter, tears, mistakes, aborted attempts and difficult stubbornness - just like my man. Here are the lyrical results of my journey. I hope y'all like it. Imagine a brisk country beat.

Flyin’ Free On The Wind

When the tears are all over, and the pain fades away

I will smile fondly and remember this day.

Returning you where you longed to be,

Is a heartbreaking journey to set you free.

“Flyin’ free on the wind

Flyin’ free on the wind with you once again

Flyin’ free on the wind my love,

Flyin’ free on the wind”

To sink down in the ocean, be one with clouds

Flyin’ high on the wind where freedom abounds

To let go your worries, your pain and your care,

Those constant burdens you no longer bear

( chorus) “Flyin’ free on the wind

Flyin’ free on the wind with you once again

Flyin’ free on the wind my love,

Flyin’ free on the wind

”Your spirit can rise with moon and set with the sun

Circle the stars until you are one

With all that is and all that will be,

One day when I join you,

We both will be free.

(chorus) “Flyin’ free on the wind

Flyin’ free on the wind with you once again

Flyin’ free on the wind my love,

Flyin’ free on the wind”.

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You have an amazing gift! I am moved by the words in your songs and wish I could hear them set to music!

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Thank you both. I just can't seem to stop writing right now and that is something I really had not done in , well a long, long time. I appreciate that you think it is good, I think the good thing about them is the catharsis that they provide.

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:wub:

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I love it.. and I"m going to share it with my friend that recently spread her son's ashes on a mountain top in Colorado.

Thank you. You are more than welcome to do so. It truly expresses my feelings about spreading his ashes.

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  • 1 month later...

I sit in your chair, Look out at your view

Trying to feel, a small part of you

I hold your ball cap up to my face

Sniffing hard inhaling the trace

Of the smell that remains,

I’m afraid it will fade.

I remember the love deep in the night

But also the pain when things weren’t quite right

You were not perfect Lord, neither was I

Together we managed most of the time

Oh! You could get angry, yell like a champ

Your eyes all icy, your face red and damp.

I knew where it came from, that childhood abuse

I just loved you through it, tried keeping it loose.

But oh God the joy when I made you glad

The absolute best times we ever had.

On shipboard you shone, how you loved to cruise

The pampering, the ports, the many places to snooze.

The Pinnacle Grill was your favorite place

To relax for a night , really stuffing your face.

You had your faults, I have them too

Together we managed to have quite a few.

The laughter that glued us was ours from the start

What kept us together and bound our two hearts.

Our love for adventure, travel and friends

Are the things that sustain me now it’s all at an end.

The things I remember, the laughter we shared

And the way when it mattered, you always were there.

The latest poem.

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Just so very beautiful, Kakalina. I have been reading your posts but have not responded. Today I want to acknowledge your beautiful thoughts.

Thank you for sharing with us. I agree with some of the others about being able to hear your words put to music.

Anne

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Kakalina ... I loved the realness of your song and the words.

Ric loved to cruise too and on this last cruise, this last gift we were given, my stepmother and dad treated us to dinner at the Pinnacle. That last week of his earthly life when he was mostly non-verbal he suddenly asked "are we still at sea?".

I love this song. Thank you so much.

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Kakalina, Beautifully written! Thank you for sharing it with us!

Suzanne, I love that (are we still out at sea?)!

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