Kakalina Posted April 15, 2015 Report Share Posted April 15, 2015 I wrote the first song just before we learned my beloved Virgil was dying. I wrote the second two weeks after his diagnosis and one week before he died. I just felt the need to share them as he is the only one who has ever heard them. Of course, all I can show you are the lyrics. Yesterdays How did it happen, Why did we change, When did we wake up And find we were strangers The love and the laughter Well they've seen us through Yet when was the last time We said , " I love you" So long, so long, so long together I don't know where you stop Or where I begin So long, so long, so long together We made it this far That makes us winners And so here we are love Wrinkled and grey Not many tomorrow's But oh, those yesterdays Our yesterdays, those yesterdays "Let Me In" I can feel your pain, let me in I know your hurting and scared let me in I just want to touch you And show you how much you, Mean to me while I still can. Don't turn away let me in, Hear what I say let me in. You've lived in your world And I've lived in mine But darling we haven't Got very much time. I'm always here, holding you near We can face this fear, let me in. Together we can face this Let me in. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest Posted April 15, 2015 Report Share Posted April 15, 2015 Thank you for sharing these. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
kayc Posted April 15, 2015 Report Share Posted April 15, 2015 Very beautifully written. I wish your song was on youtube so I could hear it. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Kakalina Posted April 15, 2015 Author Report Share Posted April 15, 2015 Thank you that is nice of you to say Kay. I had my very first dream about him last night. It was wonderful and terrible at the same time. For when I woke up and realized it was a dream my heart broke all over again. Sometimes I don't think I can stand this. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
LadyCarrie Posted April 15, 2015 Report Share Posted April 15, 2015 Beautiful heart-to-heart writing. Thank you for letting us hear with our hearts, while wishing we could the music with our ears. No doubt each of us hears the music in our imagination a bit differently, yet put together, I believe what we hear would be lovely, and hopefully, pleasing to you. Carrie Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Kakalina Posted April 20, 2015 Author Report Share Posted April 20, 2015 And here is the latest, I really like this one. Once upon a time , I loved a man Once upon a time, a man loved me Once upon a time, there was an us There was a we. Once upon a time, there was laughter Once upon a time, there was a dream, Once upon time, there was a rainbow We chased after - Once upon a time, there was love, Once upon a time, there was forever Once upon a time, there was we there was us Once upon a time, once upon a time Once upon a time .. . there was love. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
LadyCarrie Posted April 21, 2015 Report Share Posted April 21, 2015 Dear Kakalina, Thank you for sharing with us again. I encourage you to write, and to share whenever and as often as you'd like. Your love still lives; you yourself are keeping it alive. You carry it within your heart. As long as someone remembers the love, the love lives. That thought is not an original one, but I cling to it myself. Carrie Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
kayc Posted April 21, 2015 Report Share Posted April 21, 2015 I love that! I wish I could hear it. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Kakalina Posted April 21, 2015 Author Report Share Posted April 21, 2015 Thanks for having a place I can share. I can not yet bring myself to speak too much about my love and what I am going through. But, I can write my music for him and for me. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Kakalina Posted May 5, 2015 Author Report Share Posted May 5, 2015 Here is the latest, sort of bluesy with a staccato beat: Hope you like it. Started to go somewhere today But I got lost along the way Cause you weren’t there to guide me; Thought that I was forgettin’ somethin’ Stared about but there was nothin’ Then I looked around with open eyes, and that was when I realized What’s missing was you beside me. I feel a part of me is missin’ I watch for hours and find I listen For the sound of your footstep on the stair I strain to hear and then I start To look around with racing heart But you’re not there. I pray to see your face each night I reach around turn off the light Still we’re apart It’s really hard for me to face Your pillow and your empty place My broken heart. Started to go somewhere today I feel so lost I think I’ll stay, At home and dream of you. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest Posted May 5, 2015 Report Share Posted May 5, 2015 Very good indeed! I'd love to hear it sung one day. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
kayc Posted May 6, 2015 Report Share Posted May 6, 2015 I hope you get these published someday so we can hear them! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Kakalina Posted May 13, 2015 Author Report Share Posted May 13, 2015 I just returned from a week in Honolulu where I took my beloved's ashes. He wanted them there in the ocean. It was a day fraught with laughter, tears, mistakes, aborted attempts and difficult stubbornness - just like my man. Here are the lyrical results of my journey. I hope y'all like it. Imagine a brisk country beat. Flyin’ Free On The Wind When the tears are all over, and the pain fades away I will smile fondly and remember this day. Returning you where you longed to be, Is a heartbreaking journey to set you free. “Flyin’ free on the wind Flyin’ free on the wind with you once again Flyin’ free on the wind my love, Flyin’ free on the wind” To sink down in the ocean, be one with clouds Flyin’ high on the wind where freedom abounds To let go your worries, your pain and your care, Those constant burdens you no longer bear ( chorus) “Flyin’ free on the wind Flyin’ free on the wind with you once again Flyin’ free on the wind my love, Flyin’ free on the wind ”Your spirit can rise with moon and set with the sun Circle the stars until you are one With all that is and all that will be, One day when I join you, We both will be free. (chorus) “Flyin’ free on the wind Flyin’ free on the wind with you once again Flyin’ free on the wind my love, Flyin’ free on the wind”. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
KATPILOT Posted May 14, 2015 Report Share Posted May 14, 2015 Nice. Truly nice! As all you that you have shared. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
kayc Posted May 14, 2015 Report Share Posted May 14, 2015 You have an amazing gift! I am moved by the words in your songs and wish I could hear them set to music! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Kakalina Posted May 14, 2015 Author Report Share Posted May 14, 2015 Thank you both. I just can't seem to stop writing right now and that is something I really had not done in , well a long, long time. I appreciate that you think it is good, I think the good thing about them is the catharsis that they provide. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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Guest Posted May 21, 2015 Report Share Posted May 21, 2015 I love it.. and I"m going to share it with my friend that recently spread her son's ashes on a mountain top in Colorado. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Kakalina Posted May 22, 2015 Author Report Share Posted May 22, 2015 I love it.. and I"m going to share it with my friend that recently spread her son's ashes on a mountain top in Colorado. Thank you. You are more than welcome to do so. It truly expresses my feelings about spreading his ashes. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Kakalina Posted July 3, 2015 Author Report Share Posted July 3, 2015 I sit in your chair, Look out at your view Trying to feel, a small part of you I hold your ball cap up to my face Sniffing hard inhaling the trace Of the smell that remains, I’m afraid it will fade. I remember the love deep in the night But also the pain when things weren’t quite right You were not perfect Lord, neither was I Together we managed most of the time Oh! You could get angry, yell like a champ Your eyes all icy, your face red and damp. I knew where it came from, that childhood abuse I just loved you through it, tried keeping it loose. But oh God the joy when I made you glad The absolute best times we ever had. On shipboard you shone, how you loved to cruise The pampering, the ports, the many places to snooze. The Pinnacle Grill was your favorite place To relax for a night , really stuffing your face. You had your faults, I have them too Together we managed to have quite a few. The laughter that glued us was ours from the start What kept us together and bound our two hearts. Our love for adventure, travel and friends Are the things that sustain me now it’s all at an end. The things I remember, the laughter we shared And the way when it mattered, you always were there. The latest poem. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
enna Posted July 3, 2015 Report Share Posted July 3, 2015 Just so very beautiful, Kakalina. I have been reading your posts but have not responded. Today I want to acknowledge your beautiful thoughts. Thank you for sharing with us. I agree with some of the others about being able to hear your words put to music. Anne Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Kakalina Posted July 3, 2015 Author Report Share Posted July 3, 2015 Thank you Anne, that is very kind. I don't post much. I am just not ready to join conversations yet. I do spend a lot of time writing. I hope it may help relieve someone else's pain. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Suitearia Posted July 4, 2015 Report Share Posted July 4, 2015 Kakalina ... I loved the realness of your song and the words. Ric loved to cruise too and on this last cruise, this last gift we were given, my stepmother and dad treated us to dinner at the Pinnacle. That last week of his earthly life when he was mostly non-verbal he suddenly asked "are we still at sea?". I love this song. Thank you so much. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
kayc Posted July 4, 2015 Report Share Posted July 4, 2015 Kakalina, Beautifully written! Thank you for sharing it with us! Suzanne, I love that (are we still out at sea?)! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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