A lovely song

[Mom's angel]

"The Scientist" by coldplay.
 

Come up to meet you, tell you I'm sorry
You don't know how lovely you are

I had to find you
Tell you I need you
Tell you I set you apart

Tell me your secrets
And ask me your questions
Oh, let's go back to the start

Running in circles
Coming up tails
Heads on a science apart

Nobody said it was easy
It's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be this hard

Oh, take me back to the start

I was just guessing
At numbers and figures
Pulling the puzzles apart

Questions of science
Science and progress
Do not speak as loud as my heart

Tell me you love me
Come back and haunt me
Oh, and I rush to the start

Running in circles
Chasing our tails
Coming back as we are

Nobody said it was easy
Oh, it's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be so hard

I'm going back to the start

[Mom's angel]

Just a thought of the life I used to have
Just the thought about how happy I used to be
My life changed in such a way I never wanted it to be. 
Whenever I hear people  saying that they cannot even think about living without their moms, I shrink a little from inside.
Whenever a girl of my age talks about her mom, talks about how her mom will solve her problems, I shrink a little.
I shrink a little bit every time I see someone with their mothers. 

When I see an old friend, the first thing I think about is that how their life has no such drastic change and how mine has turned upside down.

Why my fate turned out this way?

I don't know but I feel as if I was not good enough and that's why all this things happened.

  ' am I not pretty enough?' 
 Whenever I listen to this song, it feels like I'm asking the questions to god, like why? What was the problem with me? 
Why I lost my mom?

 

[kayc]

It's nothing to do with you not measuring up, it's just life, it seems rather random about who it strikes and when.  Some people have smooth sailing through life, others get hit, it does no good to try and make sense of it because it's unrelated and unfair.  It just is.