Widowedbysuicide Posted August 13, 2016 Report Share Posted August 13, 2016 About 13 years ago I was hoping to get a horse. I was introduced to a guy and lucky me, I found a horse and a place to board. My husband was so good to me because he gave me the opportunity that I had dreamed of for 40 years. Horses are time consuming and costly manure makers that change you in good ways. I got Foxy 13 years ago this month. My equine love affair with her was very short but oh so sweet. So the guy I got my horse from was with a woman that I had known from school days and my husband's family knew her family. As I spent more and more time with my horse I was spending time with Bruce and Maureen as was Gord. The four of us got along quite well. We would ride together and sometimes go out. As time passed we became closer and Bruce and I loved to banter back and forth with each other. It was all in good fun. We had a great time trying to out do each other. My husband would just shake his head, Maureen would shake hers - they both were quieter personalities. When the four of us went out it was almost guaranteed that people would assume wrongly about who the actual couples were. We four were good friends for about 6 years. We had a lot of fun together, all of us, Gord and Maureen enjoyed laughing at Bruce and I and they would often 'set up' a topic for 'discussion'. Life was mostly good back then. Compared to now it was SPECTACULAR! Sadly, on a horse sale I was making, Bruce intruded and broke my trust. He tried to sabotage the sale. I told him that I was very hurt and he said that I would get over it. I didn't get over it; what he did I would never do to someone I considered a friend. He didn't appologize or admit to any wrong doing and that hurt me deeply. I moved my then 3 horses to a different boarding barn. After a year my husband and I bought a place with room for the horses and moved 30 minutes away. No contact was made by Bruce to reconcile the friendship and thus we are no longer friends. Over the years I have tried to maintain a friendship with Maureen but it has been unreciprocated. In reality I guess we weren't really friends to begin with. I miss my husband and my marriage desperately. I am still new (9 years) to my rural community and the friends from days gone by and 30 minutes away seem to have disappeared from my life, except when they have needed or wanted something they would call. Since Gord's suicide in January there has been only silence from them. I know that not all friendships last. It's just that I can't seem to accept/get over all the losses... Foxy died March 5th of 2004. I got Dakota on April Fools that year. I need to have him laid to rest this fall. In March of 2005 I got Kachina, my cheeky mare. Today is her 19th Birthday. In the following years we bought and sold Lever, Cash, and Abby. So today I have two horses that give me more care and love than I can describe in words. I am thankful to have been able to enjoy and care for all of the horses, dogs, cats and other creatures that have been in my life. I am saddened that too many animals are so poorly treated by so many people. I'm saddened also that animals are so giving and forgiving..... Kachina de Chelley, my cheeky girl, Happy Birthday! 7 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
kayc Posted August 13, 2016 Report Share Posted August 13, 2016 Horses are wonderful! I've only owned one but we had a "friend" screw us in that deal too. Now I enjoy the horses down the street when Arlie and I take our walks, I love to bring them carrots or apples. Their owners never ride them, never groom them, never take them anywhere, don't spend time with them. I guess they think their horses just need food and water. Sometimes they have to shade or shelter. So Arlie and I stop and visit with them, they love having their chins rubbed or their noses petted, or the flies brushed from their eyes. I'm sorry you lost your friends, it seems life is full of losses, isn't it? 2 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Widowedbysuicide Posted August 13, 2016 Author Report Share Posted August 13, 2016 Thank you Kay. Yes, life is full of losses. It is full of wonderful things too. As my eyes are swollen and full of tears it is hard to see the wonderful things. 2 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Widowedbysuicide Posted August 26, 2016 Author Report Share Posted August 26, 2016 Today I really miss feeling the way I did 'before'. 3 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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kayc Posted August 27, 2016 Report Share Posted August 27, 2016 Oh, that picture is very poignant...I know it's hard. 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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