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Eiram812

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    march 21, 2009
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  1. Everyone I had my birthday in August. It was so difficult because I did not receive the call from my son. I tried everything, calling Corey's son. Talking to his best friends and most of all talking to my two other children. (love them all dearly) still today I need that call I always get from him saying "happy birthday". Now I have to climb another hurdle, his birthday is in two weeks and I don't know how to deal with not talking to him. I think of his birth, today I was looking, just looking for something of his. I found his birth certificate, his shot records, his foot prints. That seemed not to be enough so I just kept looking but found nothing else. I found his newborn pictures, and so many pictures of him over the years. That still wasn't enoug. I don't know what I was looking for but, no matter how much I found it was not enough.Losing my son is so painful and I am so tired, just so tired of hurting. My son died doing what he loved "riding his motorcycle" a car turned off in front of him and he could not stop and he died at the scene. That day March 21, 2009 my life changed forever. A part of me is missing that will never be returned, never be replaced. What am I going to do when his birthday comes? I remember when I held him the 1st time, kissed him the 1st time, changed his diaper the 1st time, and then held him for the last time, watched him crawl, walk and grow into the man he is. I don't know what to do. I just don't know what to do!! I wish there was something that eased the pain. I am getting so tired of hurting, so tired. Just pray for me.
  2. Hello Jon's mom, I am so sorry for your losses. I am having more nights of not sleeping. I wish this would not have happened to us but, it have. Our lives without our children feel so empty. Trying to go on day to day is very difficult. I have good moments and so many bad moments I can't keep up with them. My son have one biological son and he came to stay a month with me and he left Friday 8/7. He is so much like my son. When he got on the plane to go home I felt so sad. I just wanted to run down the ramp and bring him back. His voice is like my son, he laughs like my son, and all of the funny things my son did he does them too. Down side is that he is sloppy same as my son . It was a pleasure to clean up behind him because this is what I had to do for my son. My heart is hurting so much. My son's birthday will be next month and I don't know what to do. His birthday is one month from the day of mine. I don't know how to cope. I take meds to sleep but they don't help any more. I may sleep a couple hours. Doc says he will raise the miligrams so that I can start resting. When I look at my sons pictures from birth to now. I wonder why was my wonderful child taken from me????
  3. Yolonda, I did not get your e-mail address. Will you please try and send it again? I have been away spending time with my other children and grandchildren. Wish I could put them in a bubble and protect them from the world. losing my makes me scared for my other children and grandchildren. when the phone rings I am even more afraid. I feel that someone is calling to give me bad news. We parents do not deserve to hurt so tremendoulsy. Sleep, I wish I knew how to do that again without medication. I am also taking one-on-one counseling. I agree with you the group counseling did not help me and maybe I did not stay in it long enough but, at the time it was only two weeks after Corey and I needed someone, something to try and get some comfort. I do work and it really does help me because work is the only normal I have in my life. My friends here and the state I moved from were and are so supportive. We have to be here for each other.
  4. On March 21. 2009 my life changed forever. I received a call from my son's wife telling me that my oldest son was killed when a vehicle and was killed instantly. I do not know how to accept this great loss. The hardest part was telling my other two sons that there brother was dead and Corey's only son. Life for us will never be the same. Pain, oh the pain is so great. my heart I can feel a hole in it, the place where my son resides. As a parent we do not expect our children to go before us. But, it's happened to me. I live in another world. I always called my sons "my three sons". I thought I wanted more information so I called georgia police dept. and spoke to the officer that was on the scene. I call the coroners office to get a copy of the autopsy report, I called the hopsital to get a copy of the report from the hospital and I have received the autopsy report and what that did for me was bring reality that my son is really gone. But, most of all it let me know what really happened to him. My life before this happened seems no more. Trying to bring some normalcy back to my life has been very hard. I think of my son daily (all day & night). I know my son was killed instantly but, the thought of what he went through broken, arm, leg, forearm, multiple broken ribs, he was in pain. But, getting the report help me to know what happened to him. Doesn't make me feel better but, now I know. Please pray for me and my children.
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