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    January 28, 2010 and April 2010
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    Hospice of the Valley Phoenix, Arizona

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  1. Everyday is an adventure in Ashley's world.

  2. Thank you so much. Everything is greatly appreciated.
  3. Ignore death up to the last moment; then, when it can't be ignored any longer, have yourself squirted full of morphine and shuffle off in a coma. Thoroughly sensible, humane and scientific, eh? - Aldous Huxley Warm, sunny Easter morning. As I stepped out from my father’s dirty Chevy the rays of sun danced across my leg like hundreds of delicate fairies. The blacktop caressed my dainty foot as the wind danced around my body bringing my hair and skirt into a magnificent waltz of twists and twirls. As I walked into the serene white building, my mother’s hand held me like an anchor to the reality of life. It looked so happy on the outside with vibrant flowers in juxtaposition with the dull beige planter which contained them. The cool water bubbled and cascaded down the tranquil charcoal stones who cowered beneath the soft trickle of water as if they were scared of the perfect liquid ribbon. The ruthless sunlight ceased to eat away my virgin skin as I entered under an umbrella of protection. I proceeded under this protection until I reached sliding glass doors who seemed to welcome me into my biggest nightmare. Smiling faces and a chill greet my entrance. I hide my face from these robots they call people. As my legs mechanically extend forward down the never ending corridor the girl in my head sprints from the reality of the moment. With each slow step down the hall the girl sprints back to her happy fairytale. The gap is closing between the hall and door, my mind races on. I cling to the circle that will soon expand to engulf me into the biggest black hole I have yet to see. The girl in my head takes one last step, collapsing, and screaming on the way down. My fairytale is no more and the only thing left is the harsh grip of reality pushing me towards what I have always run from. Death.
  4. I read just one of your post and got chills. I am so so terribly sorry for the things that have happened to you.

  5. I read just one of your post and got chills. I am so so terribly sorry for the things that have happened to you.

  6. Okay. Katie was diagnosed at the age of 15 with stage 4 bone and blood cancer. I'm not saying that she is going to die because we are praying for a miracle but she is struggling. Katie is a beautiful young girl and she needs prayers for this sickness to go away. I don't know Katie personally but there are alot of people that I do know that care and love her so all prayers are needed. Thank you for listening and please keep her in your prayers.
  7. healing does come but you never forget...

  8. First I would like to say that I am so sorry for what you are feeling and letting you know it's alright to feel that way. I was the same way... held everything in because I had to be strong and some people in my family can still talk about my grandparents like it's nothing but I still have a hard time with it.... when my grandparents died I had a rough time with my faith especially and like you became very depressed. That's when my dad got me a counseluer who then pointed to me to this sight and honestly I don't think I would've lasted without it... it saved my llife. So feel free to vent and explain how your feeling because all of us on here have felt grief and we will support you through this hard time. <3 praying for you.
  9. Ok this is problem not a big deal compared to alot of stuff on here but I really need to get this out... ok so 4 days ago was my birthday the day before that my boyfriend of 2 and a half years broke up with me. I'm know 15 but still it hurts so bad. The situation is extremely complicated and very hard to explain. His parents really don't like me and he said I wasn't trying in the relationship like trying to talk to his parents or anything. I didn't think his parents wanted to talk to me! Ugh. He has been there with me through it all and I've never felt anything like it before... he was my first love and now he's gone. He said it was just a break but I have no clue how we are ever going to work out again. 1 week before he dumped me he asked the most popular girl to homecoming. Yes he told me he did but after he had already asked and she said yes. He told me his dad made him ask because his dad likes her a million times more then me. Then she cancelled on him because she's one of my good friends. It was a red flag for me but I ignored it because well I love him. I know I'm 15 and alot of people don't believe love could actually happen for people my age but it was... I gave alot to him he held my heart and now there's like a hole in my chest and everytime I see him I just want him to talk to me or hug me but he doesn't... I don't know if I should try and move on or wait for the chance for him to come back. Wow I just don't know what to do right now... so could I get some advice from people who have gone through some similar situations? please
  10. Okay this is the first post in a long time... well alot has happened. I miss my grandparents so much and there is so much I wish I could have them here for. My birthday was 4 days ago and it was sooo hard not having them call and wish me happy birthday. The day before that one of my main purposes for staying here was gone. Ya I was dumped the day before my birthday and it hurts so bad. My grandma would know just what to say... but shes not here. My grandpa would of made me laugh until I cried but he wasn't here either so I have nothing. My best friend doesn't even want to hear about it.... I just wish I could go back in time and fix everything that happened with my friends and boyfriend. I want my grandparents back. I want my best friend back. I want my boyfriend back. I just want my life back!
  11. Niamh I would love to hang out with him but.... were not allowed to. No talking on the phone or hanging out without a big group of people so I have no contact during the summer. It's been hard this summer because this is the first summer I haven't talked to him and this is the summmer I need my best friend the most.
  12. you're more than welcome hun, this site has and still is my lifeline so we're always here for each other

    xo

  13. Hey everyone I just idk i feel so lost and confused right now and I don't know what to do.... so much is happening right now and I feel like there has to be somewhere that there isn't painful. I believe in God so sometimes suicide is a tempting thought. One of things keeping me here is a boy [typical 14 year old answer I know] but we've liked each other for 2 and a half years going on 3 years. He means the world to me and I know that I couldn't hurt him like that the other thing holding me back is my family I know that I couldn't do that to them... I just need something to make me happy again. Any ideas for something to make me happy because I would really like to be myself again.
  14. Hi Niamh... you were the first one to comment on my post /emoticons/default_smile.png" alt=":)"> thanks for that you were really encouraging.

  15. Well if you look at my profile you can see that I lost both of my grandparents within 4 months of each other. I was close to my grandpa but much much closer to my grandma... she was one of the most amazing women I have ever met. I miss her every single day. Although I have no regrets about our relationship I still want more time with her. She was so strong and selfless. I am a lot like my grandma I am stubborn just like she was and will never give up. Life has been so different without her, she died of COPD and my grandpa of lung cancer. 2 summers ago I lost my Aunt Gloria to brain cancer and when I was 7 or 8 I lost both of my great grandparents. So obviously death is something I am very aware of. Though I am aware of it, it is still hard for me because I love and care about everyone so deeply. This loss of my grandparents has been a nightmare even though I knew it was coming, that fact did not make it any easier. I watched both of them die in the 2 and a half years they battled with their diseases. That is not something a typical 14 year old should have to deal with... but I have to be strong for my family and friends. Even after their death nobody, but my closest friends, knew how much I was hurting or what had even happened to me because I was still the same old me I always had been.
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