I told myself talking with strangers wouldn't help. I told myself I could do this alone. I was wrong on all accounts. I can't do this alone. I've only been a widow for 3 months, but it seems like a lifetime already. For some reason I thought by now I wouldn't be crying so much. But each day I cry in the morning while I work and in the evening while doing nothing at all. I chose this forum so I wouldn't be crying in front of others. But now after reading some of the responses I'm rethinking that and now I know that would be okay if I did.
