I have lost 4 people or so, like a lot. It's like one-by-one. Months after months. I've recovered few months ago but just now when I watch LION KING MUSICAL Theatre, when Musfasa came out back a live, it says: "Have you forgotten about me Simba? Remember who you are" And I was like "Wth how can Simba remembers u when you're gone and the more he remembers you the more he's hurt" I shed a tear.It affects me. I don't know.I cried a lot after that show. I now kinda have a fear of seeing or hearing people dies. It can bring me back to tragedy, my heart hurts so much I don't know what to do Usually I get no respect for my grieving, I didn't share my emotions to anyone. I deal with this alone, is this a good thing? Usually no one cares it's like I have to make myself feel better :/ why do I have fears of hearing people dies? How does this whole thing work? i don't understand lots of things. ._.