Hello to you all, I apologize for not having read any other thread on these forums (yet). I just feel the need to type what I am feeling. I had to have my dog, Buzz, put down today (about 12 hours ago) due to kidney failure. Can't really go into much detail right now as my tears splash on this keyboard. He was a yorky (Yorkshire Terrier) who gave me 10 years of unconditional love. I'm in bits right now and have turned to my arch nemesis for comfort........alcohol......it's not working. TBC......the screens gone all blurry What makes it harder for me is that I am an Atheist. It makes it very hard to deal with death, knowing (no harm intended to those that think differently) that when someone (or something.....but that sounds harsh) dies, that's it.....game over......there is no better place, no doggy or animal heaven.... (need to wipe the keyboard) All I know is, I'm going to get very depressed for the next few days at least. I can't handle death. Maybe that's a common feeling. I dunno. All I know is that I'm grieving more for the loss of Buzz than I did for my Gran last year.......how screwed up is that!?!