TeresaR

I am grateful you are sharing your testaments to a great love. I feel the love you shared and still have as I read. Thank you Teresa Saw a couple and the dog park, they were holding hands. I felt a darkness coming over my heart as that's what we did and then I stepped back and was happy for them (still sad for me). Took Matthew from the hospital to hospice house today...he doesn't want to be touched, agitated...Going back to sit tonight....I am afraid he wont know me soon.

Yes, when people ask, how are you it's like someone flipped a switch. I feel like howling and wailing in response...but I do my best to hold it in, tear up, face turns red, eyes get bloodshot and I say, ok, but you know. I think at this time i would rather hear statements. Like I am here for you. I am praying for you, remember to take care of you....I dont want to have to respond or the cry switch comes on. But I do want to know they are their. Teresa

I hope you can forgive yourself soon. Everyone seems safe. Enjoy right now with your pet. He may be different but he is still your friend. Breathe deep. You accomplished a lot by getting your mom the care she needs. If she can't thank you, know that I am grateful you helped someone I don't know but is vulnerable. I am truly grateful for that. Teresa

Thanks so much,you are kind. I hope I can be as supportive to others as you are soon but now I am just putting one foot in front of the other. I feel like many of you are marching with me and it feels good not to be alone. Teresa

hello to all, I am new on this side of hospice or most medical care. i work in a hospital and worked with hospice long ago but now I am on the other side of the fence. It is so very hard. Currently my boyfriend is in the hospital I work at. we are trying to gain control of his pain. The hardest part is not being able to fix this. I am pretty good at fixing things but I can't fix this. He is only 45. I know people much younger have suffered....but he's only 45. People always ask, how are you doing? I really dislike that question? Most of the time I say fine...but that is a lie. Now I say "I say I'm fine but you know". I just really wish people wouldn't ask...it breaks my heart...and as I say, this is my hospital, so I know they truly care. Thank you for hosting this site...it feels right to post here.