I'm 18 years old. I got preganent prom night when I was 17. For a little while I had a feeling I was pregnant but didn't no for sure. I gained some weight and had a little belly going. My friends said I looked pregnant. I used to take a shower and talk to her and hold my belly. I would rub my belly as I went to sleep and sing her a song. I loved her but I was also scarred which is why I didn't take a pregnancy test for a long time. I didn't no what my boyfriends reaction would be.
When I was pregnant I was working in a resturant as a busser and hostess. Constantly picking up heavy bins full of dishes ans heavey menus. Then I told my boyfriend he was scarred but thrilled at the same tjme and promised to stay with me and support me and love our baby. He used to rub my belly n smile. My little baby bump was so cute. Then two days after my birthday I I was at work ( a differnt job I got at the airport ) I was the bag girl that day lifting heavy bags and putting them onto rhe conver belt and pushing wheel chairs. 3 hours inro my day I got this horrible ppain in my stomach and my (you know) ... I went to the bathroom to throw up and then I felt a rush of liqued come nto my pants. It was blood. I couldnt control the bleeding i tried wearing a tampon and pad to just get threw the work day but i coulsnt i kept bleeding threw and i was in so much pain. I calldd my boyfriend . He broaght me to shoprite got me some panera bread bean soup and drove me to the emergency room. From there we waited for two hours judt for a room. The nurse helped me and cleaned me up while my boyfriend sat next to me on the bed holding my hand and tlking me threw everything. He sheilded my n eyes and held my hands when they took blood...
My boyfriend went out to have a ciggarette and the doctor came back saying that I am okay but the baby is gone. I held the baby in my hamd and cried. Just the sizeof my palm the baby was so small. So helpless and it was all my fault that the baby ddidn't live. I went snd got dressed my boyfriend came back and I told him. He held me and let me cry in his arms. We lost a baby that thursday. The next wwek I got a tattoo saying "an angel wrote my babys name I n the book of life and replied too beautiful for earth" my boyfriend got the same tattoo . Well never forget out angel. I cry everynight thinking about her. Idk how to get threw it. But thathat's my story.
