Hi guys, hope you can help me.
My dearest girlfriends who are twins lost their mother on Wednesday. Funeral's on Tuesday.
Ok, so, the problem.
Last time I cried was yesterday morning the girls mother's friend of 30 years came to see me. Mum said I had to "Be strong." So, what did I do? I suppressed everything, and now I can't cry at all. Scared that I'll get physically sick, or heaven forbid, start hurting myself again.
I love their mother. Always have. Always will. She, as with the girls, feel like my family. Known them for the majority of my life. I'm worried that everything will stay suppressed and the overwhelming sadness will just inwardly destroy me. Basically what this is is, I want to cry and get it out but I can't. Help?
Also what do I do about Tuesday? Because I'll have to be strong then too, and I don't want to be like this after the funeral. It hurts more than crying. Sad movies, music, that ain't helping. At all.
Thanks, guys
