bballgal8

Thanks for your kind words. I have not been to counseling and have always been hesitant about it. I have always found it hard for me to talk about difficult things but in the end it just ends up holding me back. It is hard not talking to anyone about this though. I haves a sister I am close with that I am able to talk to but maybe seeing a counselor will help me work through this better. Thanks for the advice.

Hey guys, A year ago in April I lost a very close friend of mine. She died in a car accident and I was the one driving. I know it wasn't my fault that caused the accident (a car ran a red light) but I can't seem to get over it. I think all the time what if we left just one minute later? What if she decided to drive and I was the one in her spot? When she first died I would have dreams about what happened and I am starting to have some of the same dreams again. I felt like I was making progress in dealing with my grief but now I feel like I am taking some steps back. She was someone I could talk to about anything and just laugh and have fun with. I keep finding reasons not to see my other friends because it brings back all the memories of times we spent together and I feel like I am shutting them out. I think some of them are angry with me for it and I don't think they understand why I have a hard time hanging out with them. I'm hoping once it gets past the one year mark I won't feel so awful.