Spyro

I know your boyfriend is probably focusing right now on the fact that he feels he cut caspers life short or hurt him. But what helped me was to look back and focus on the relationship we shared prior to the accident. Although my kittens life was short (only 12 weeks), she was absolutely spoiled & pampered during that time. She only ever knew happiness. Similarly to mine it sounds like Casper probably didn't know what happened it was so quick so take comfort in the fact that you guys made his short life very happy for him and don't deprive yourselves of loving another pet.

Emily, sorry to hear that you have experienced something similar to what happened to my kitten. My husband and I adopted a new kitten soon after this incident happened. We had so many worries - would I feel guilty getting a new one, would we be able to love it as much, would our dog adapt to a new kitten...and of course, what if I hurt this one too? We've now had our new kitten for 7 weeks and she has helped us so much. We still miss our first kitten & could never replace her, but spending time with our new one was the first thing to help us start to heal. My new one is such a different little personality & I have grown to love her just as much, although I still miss my little grey cat. I had awful flashbacks for a while and had to remove my plug in air freshener from the room she died in as the smell brought me right back to that moment! I still sometimes get feelings of guilt but I've come to realise accidents happen & I can't punish myself forever. I hope you can find peace too!

I am so devastated & have never felt so guilty and sad. 12 weeks ago my friends cat had kittens & I picked mine out that day. She was a gorgeous grey tabby, my dream cat. I handled her once a week and watched her grow up. I was getting married & within a week of us coming home from honeymoon she was ready to come home with us. She immediately bonded with our 5yo dog & for the past 6 weeks my husband & I have fallen totally in love with her. She was the most lovely, cuddly kitten. Yesterday I was off work & decided to spend an hour with my two pets watching TV. I got up to get a yoghurt from the fridge. As I was walking out of the kitchen I suddenly decided to turn back to get something. My little cat had followed me in & I thought I was going to step on her because she darted towards my feet. I tried to miss her & ended up tripping over her. As I did she darted backwards & in the tangle of us trying to miss each other I ended up catching her head with my foot. She immediately collapsed & blood was coming from her ears. I was wailing & crying, I knew she was gone. she didn't cry & her eyes were fully dilated but she started taking fits. I don't think she was aware of anything going on, but it was horrible to watch my beloved pet in that state & be so powerless. I rushed her to the vet but she was already gone by the time I got there. I don't know how to come to terms with this guilt. I was so protective over her & minutes before had hunted the house for her because I could hear she was playing with a plastic bag & I was afraid she would suffocate! When this accident happened I was trying so hard not to even step on her paw or tail but in doing so I made it so much worse my husband doesn't blame me & knows it was a freak accident but I can't escape the feelings of guilt & flashbacks to the sight of her. Everyone wants me to get another kitten to help my dog & myself move on but right now I feel like I don't even deserve to ever own a cat again. I have cried constantly ever since.