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littlebee

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    12/16/2014
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  1. I'm sorry for your loss vicente I wish for you to find peace and relief to your pain, I know it is hard, because we loved our companion animals so much, they became part of our souls. for me at first was comforting to see my chiquiniñas pictures, but now since just a few days ago I can't see them because it relieves the pain. Why now that is having a different effect on me? I don't know. Love yourself and forgive yourself, because that is what Guyton want for you, because he love you too. Have you made a memorial or something to honor Guyton ? maybe that can help you to begin healing.
  2. I'm sorry for your loss jess. my heart is with you. thank you for sharing the picture of Axil he's beautiful. And so beautiful memories, thanks for sharing them with us I send a big hug to you.
  3. yes they love unconditionally. it is still hard for me sometimes to express what I'm feeling. I've been feeling like numb, it is difficult to concentrate on the most daily tasks, sometimes I just stop doing what I was doing and I'm just thinking of nothing just feeling the numbness. I don't know if I 'm feeling less sad or more , it's just different. my other babies they help me with their company, their unconditional love. The younger with her playing.
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    Kylie

    ♥ My heart is with you leftover
  5. ljones I'm sorry for your loss. at first it seems that the pain is never going away. I think there is hope, that pain of lossing someone we love so much it's almost unbearable with time it becomes more bearable. I'm still in that process. at first I felt that I didn' want one more dog in my life, I didn't want that hurt again. (but I already have 3 more) and they have help me a lot with their unconditional love. The smallest one with her antics she make me smile. I tought I wasn't going to be able to smile again. If I didn't have them I think I would have gone to the animal shelter to adopt to give love to another furry baby, They are there waiting for someone to love them and they would love back.
  6. Thank you KayC. I have read other post from people that have lost their companion animal and I see that some of them don't came back, I wondered if they're healed. Before losing my chiquiniña, I didn't think on the pain and suffering of the people that lose their CA. Now everytime I pray, They're in my prayers and I pray to God for those little creatures, the ones that are lost, missing, or suffering. I pray to God that He help humans to expand the consciousness, the awareness about these souls that are not so different from us, their differences are only on the outside.
  7. she is so cute Carrie, Chiquiniña sometimes did that and we laugh, but we said to her get off that chair KayC, we didn't find our neighbors dog, they already gave up. They put the picture on their social web pages. I did the same. I went to ask some neighbors who live a little further but nobody saw him. I'm feeling a little better I think. I don't cry a lot. sometimes the pain is like a wave then I cry. I feel tired all the time and my mind is as numb and is difficult to concentrate on anything. and still feel sad. I talk to her everyday, I wish her happiness and peace. I also pray to The Creator for the same to her soul to be in peace in love and happiness, she deserve it because everyday she made us happy.
  8. yesterday in the afternoon one of my neighbors came, she told me their chihuahua dog dissapear a week ago, when she let him out in the morning, he never get far, he always returned to his home. we love that dog he is bonita's boyfriend. so sweet and calm dog, she was telling me how her daughers and husband are so sad, they are been searching without result. my husband and I went to look for but didn't find him.
  9. luckyGirl is beautiful, thank you KayC for sharing the picture. Two days ago my son began to talk sweet to my dogs, He does that every day, but he was excluding chiquiniña's mom, because She is the one that escape whenever she can and the other followed her. My son had resentment towards her and to me, after some days he seems to forgive me. But he was still rejecting bonita, Now Two days ago he began talking sweet to bonita again. I can't describe the emotions I felt, that I feel about it because it was very painful for me and for bonita to see him rejecting her. sometimes bonita is so sad and I hear she sobs when she is in her bed, my other two dogs menina her daughter and maruchita her niece they go and they try to comfort her. How much can she remember? I ask myself If she saw what happen with chiquiniña or she just missing her longing for her like I do. I feel that I don't want to live in here anymore this place is full of memories and it hurts. But at the same time I don't want to go away because of the memories I thin if I lose the memories I will lose her definitely. Yesterday I called my mother and I was on the phone with her for 4 hours, I talked with my dad for 30 minutes. I was feeling so alone and sad it was unbearable. I called a friend, she's beheaving so cruel towards me, she don't' answer the phone. I called other friend and she told me they keep seeing each other, they go to breackfast together, they're being hanging out. I'm thinking they don't want to see my sad face. When I need them the most.
  10. ♥ sometimes is hard to write and express what I'm Feeling, but I know you undestand Thank you Carrie and KayC and thank you MartyT for the articles
  11. thank you all for your kindness. she was so sweet, always following me around, they weren't allowed upstairs since some months ago because the littlest one didn't respect the carpet upstairs. Now This is one more of my regrets, because when I was upstairs they couldn't be with me, sometimes she did came upstairs and y send her back, those memories now are so painful, all the time that I lost that I could be with her. the guilt sometimes I came to the forum and I just can't write because the pain is so overwhelming when my husband and my son are home I feel a little better, sad but not overwhelming. yesterday my son went to a friend's house and my husband was with me, since I wake up I felt so beat down so sad, we went to buy groceries, and the whole time I wanted to cry, when we were back home I could not contain more and I cried so hard, my husband hug me. I have tried to reach out my friends but they are always working or busy with their families, The only relatives I got here are my husband and my son, maybe that's why it's been harder. The last year I almost didn't leave home, my dogs are my constant companions. I have tried to do some meditations I found on youtube, I think it help me a little to regain some peace for some moments. I'm thinking to do some exercise. something that help me to feel better. Carrie, that day, I took off the picture of my chiquinina off my desktop because I could not bear to see her picture, I understand you, and you don't have to bring a picture of Ashely. only if you want to, I respect you desicion and you feelings. KayC thank you, yes she has beautiful eyes.
  12. beautiful letter for Benji, so much love, thank you for sharing your memories my heart is with you ♥ pati
  13. thank you carrie, that picture is from days after she was born, when she began to leave the house of her mother out to explore. I will try to put one more recent at the bottom of this post. one more of my regrets is that I just have a few pictures, I wish I had taken more photos of her. Every night before I go to sleep I need to see her and I see her pictures, same every morning. thank you for the hug, I feel the energy you send me and I'm grateful for it. in one of the pictures is with her little sister, they used to play all the time chiquiniña was a very good sister, very patient and loving with menina, the first days after we lost her I saw menina many times looking for her trying to find her, It was very painful. yesterday in the afternoon I have a couple of hours feeling at peace, was seeing pictures of her in the bedroom and my husband came, we were talking about her remembering, then we went to play with the other 3, we sat at the sofa and they jump to sit on our laps. After some minutes my husband fell asleep in there and the 2 older ones with him. the smaller in my lap, I just realized in that moment that although I felt some sadness , I was not feeling this pain in the belly I've felt since I lost my chiquiniña. Later at night It came that pain again. I been praying, Reading the Bible, calling my sisters, my mom. we don't talk about my feelings. Just one of my sisters seems to undestand me although she has not had any animal friend.
  14. Anne, He's beautiful I see why you love him so much. pati
  15. I'm sorry for your loss vicente. I did too lost my little chiquiniña, so sudden, I still grieving and feeling guilty about it. what give me a little peace is that I Love her and she knew she was very loved. sometimes dogs get sick and it is not our fault. He knew he was loved, they know when they are loved My heart is with you in these difficult moments.
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