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Charlene

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  • Your relationship to the individual who died
    Mother
  • Date of Death
    9/22/2015
  • Name/Location of Hospice if they were involved:
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    Female
  • Location (city, state)
    Orlando, Fl

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  1. Erica, I am very sorry about your loss, as I too lost my 18 months daughter recently in September. There are many unexplained situations, but I am sure they should allow you to see her. Since it was from August, were you given any information from the medical examiner and your child was properly put to rest? They took great care of us and my baby daughter. We had support from the hospital and the police dept, as well as the medical examiner. Hopefully you have found a closure. Keeping you and your family in my prayers.
  2. I am with you on this, as the holidays are upon us all...this will be my baby's 2nd holiday with us, if my baby Harmony was with us today...holidays will be very difficult to bear. Keeping you in my prayers!
  3. Thank you, Marty! This is a beautiful article! I shared it with my family and friends. This explains my pain that I cannot seem to put into words for them...
  4. Thank you, Marty and Kay. I found this topic and definitely read everyone's posts here. It is helping me see what others are going through.
  5. Thank you, Kay! I have been going over and over the accident in my mind... My older kids reserved an area for Harmony. I love gardens and she loved my yellow flower tree, so I am going to create a garden just for her. My children has been seeing a counselor and I have been on a weekly basis. My husband does not feel like talking to one yet, so he has been talking to me instead. Harmony was the youngest. My oldest is already 23. So, Harmony was a blessing for everyone in the family. Thus, her death was very shocking and painful for us all. I am happy to hear that you are doing well with the loss of your husband. My husband is my best friend as well, so we share a lot together. I hope to find peace within myself along this long journey. I have been talking to Harmony every morning and night, as these times are the ones when I miss her the most when I hear her voice waking me up and when I am tucking her to bed. I feel that there is something, an energy there after death. I felt it when she passed away that night, that feeling where someone said something is wrong. Her death was just so tragic and heart wrenching, as I found her lifeless body. The images just will not go away...maybe there will be a day in the future where I can tell the story and not cry... Again, thank you for sharing your experiences with me. I continue to research and read about these tragedies to help release my pain. They have helped, especially your suggestions and tips. Charlene
  6. I was seeking for a group like this to talk about my loss. I have seeked counseling and plan on attending the compassionate friends meeting. I have not been able yet to talk to someone with similar problems. I recently lost my 18 months old daughter from accidental drowning in our rental home with a pool on September 22, 2015. I have been in pain since her death. I am full of guilt because I went searching for her and found her floating in the pool. She does not know how to open doors yet and the patio door is too heavy for her. She just started learning how to walk and was still stumbling around. I was cooking dinner when suddenly I felt strange that my baby was missing, that feeling that your child's presence is not home anymore. I checked with my grown up children and she was not with them as always the case. I knew then where to find out. With the patio doot closed, I saw her floating body in the pool. I ran and jumped in even though I did not know how to swim. She had fallen on the deeper end. My husband was cutting grass and he ran in and did CPR immediately. 911 came and took her to the ER. She did not make it....since then I am full of pain, guilt, anger at God and myself...I cannot sleep well and wake up with tears. I have been praying to God and to my baby. Her name is Harmony. I have so many questions...how did it happen? Why did I not look sooner? Is there really a place call heaven? How long will this pain be in my heart? Our family is not the same anymore. We are talking and supporting each other instead of blaming each other, but just so many painful questions left unanswered. I have suffered grief before but losing my baby was the worst...it is like no other and no words can describe it. a lonely and sad mom just missing her precious child that I never imagined losing so early...I did nothing but research about toddler drowning...it has been a relentless journey so far...
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