Allison

Hi Brad, Thank you. I have been seeing a grief counselor since April 1st and she has been amazing. I am joining a Grief Share group next week as well. My husband had a stomach ache. Just a stomach ache. Went into the hospital on the 15th, they told him it was gastric cancer on the 18th and he suffered a cardiac event on the 23rd. The Dr, called it a "fluke" but that I will someday see it as a blessing, as he did not have to suffer through cancer. Still sucks though. Still really really sucks.

Thank you!

Marg, thank you so much for your kind words. It is such a crazy, trippy ride. I remember just sitting there saying "no" as well. Just....no. I think the fact that Jason and I were so young just makes everything seem so backwards. All of the "old timers" in the family make comments such as "she's young, she'll find another husband". As I this happened and now we move on while I still have "time" to have a normal life. Sigh. I withdraw from them because that is not what I want- or need- to hear. You are not selfish. And so what if you were? You were blessed with 54 years, obviously something was working. Why wouldn't you want more? But thank you again....for your response and support

This is my first post, very new to this online group thing. Lost my amazing, beautiful, wonderful 41 yr old husband on February 23rd 2015. Wondering if I will ever wake up and not remember how many days it's been. Wondering if I will ever make it through an entire day without crying. Wondering if the new me is someone that my old friends are still going to love. Wondering if I will ever un-see what I saw in the hospital. Wondering why this happened-to us- when all we asked for was to be allowed to love each other in our own little corner of this world. Wondering how I will survive. I know I will, just unsure HOW.