Hi,
I am unsure how to manage my way around this site.Please forgive me if I am doing it wrong.
A year ago my dad was diagnosed with end-stage liver failure,type 1 diabetes, hepatitis c,and liver cancer. I have a brother and a sister too. My dad hasn't been to a doctor in a real long time and was diagnosed all at once. It was very hard for him to deal with it,but, he (we) did. His hepatitis is gone, he is managing his diabetes and we have made a few trips to the transplant center and actually found out that one of us could donate 2/3 of our liver to him so he won't have to wait on any list.
Recently though dad has decided he doesn't want to burden any of us with after transplant care and without any guarantees about quality of life, he has decided, with a lot of thought,that he no longer wants to go through with the transplant.
I am so sad. All the time. My dad and I have always been the best of pals. My mom left us when we were real little so it has always been just us. When I was 16 I became "the woman of the house". I helped raise my brother and sister,did all the chores and cooking,etc. I am now the mother of 5 and have been married for 14 years. I have had weeks now that I will set out to accomplish a lot and decide after everyone leaves for work and school that I just want to sleep. I am not sure where to go from here.