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About BillT

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  • Birthday 01/07/1951

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  1. Brad, reading your posts have helped me in many ways, often letting me realize that I am not completely alone in the feelings I have. Thank you for being you, and best wishes to you in the future! Bill
  2. I used to smile and laugh every day. Maybe I will again some day. Thanks and prayers to all. Bill
  3. Need prayers

    Prayers to you and yours Butch.
  4. Many souls here are walking the path that you have been set upon. None of us chose this path, but there is nothing to do but travel it. My heart goes out to you. Your pain is felt here. There is no "fix", but they tell me that we will eventually find our way. This site allows us to read and speak with others who do understand. Prayers to you.
  5. I believe that is the crux of the issue of people "not understanding". They don't understand because they can't understand unless they have been through it, and possibly only if they have been through it recently. I have lost a sister, a wife , a girlfriend, a father, mother, step father, and now, just eight months ago, my soulmate. None of the previous losses prepared me in any way for the loss of my soulmate. I understand that people do not understand. Love and prayers are with you.
  6. I'm not the same person

    So true. Nothing seems to help for the past eight months.
  7. Gin, The same thing happened with my TV a couple of months ago. To get it back to operating normally, I had to turn off the TV and unplug it from the wall. I waited 30 minutes, plugged it back in, and when it came back on, my remote functioned normally. If you try this, I hope it works for you too! Love & prayers to you, Bill
  8. Roary, I am so sorry for you losing your Bob. This forum is a good place for expressing your grief and reading the thoughts of others who are going through similar agonies. I lost my sweet Mary Kay in January. We were soul mates from the first day, 18 years ago. I miss her every minute of every day. Janet welcome to the group. Visit often and share your grief. You are in the right place. Love and prayers, Bill
  9. Cookie, My heart goes out to you, I miss my Mary Kay so much that I just do not want to go on. I lost the love of my life just seven months ago. Sadness and tremendous loss - yes, oh yes. Cookie, I wish that I could say something that would ease your pain, but I don't believe the words exist. We miss our loved ones and the pain cuts us to our souls. Like you, I, at 65 feel that my life is likely over. Know that people here on this site have a idea of what you are going through and love and prayers are coming to you. Bill
  10. Death is all around me

    Oh George. thank you! Can't type, for the tears.
  11. Death is all around me

    TerriL, I wish that I could say something positive, but I can't. I can say that you are not alone in having that feeling. I lost the love of my life, my Mary Kay 6 months and 18 days ago. Totally unexpected. She was my everything. I have no desire to go on, nothing to offer others, and nothing to look forward to, except for the day that I will join her. I have had a bad last few days. Maybe someday I will feel differently. Prayers to you TerriL.
  12. Boogie,

    If you feel a need to talk to someone, I am in your general area (Cedar Hill, South DFW).  

    My dear Mary Kay has been gone for 6 1/2 months.  I will share a bit of my situation with you:

    My Sweetheart was the picture of health at 63 yoa.  She got a headache, which was not unusual for her.  It did not go away as it usually did.  One night, she woke babbling incoherently.  I rushed her to the ER, where the doctors determine there is an infection on her brain.  Surgery is performed, and two weeks latter, she is recovering and scheduled to be transferred to Rehab in a day or two.  I am with her and I determine that her pain is returning, and have the nurse call the doctor.  They rush her to have another MRI and find bleeding in the brain and irreversible massive damage. We took my Darling home to Hospice care.  She died ten days latter, never regaining consciousness. 


    It comes in waves.  I am crushed.  I cry and I scream in anguish.  Does not matter.  To never hear her voice calling out "I'm home", or saying "I love you!" or "You're MY Baby!"  creates a hollow in me that is bigger than me.  I am nothing but pain without her.  The thought of a future like this is abhorrent.

    Boogie, my thoughts and prayers are with you this day.



  13. Feeling lost

    Marita, I will refrain from offering any words of "wisdom" (as if I had any). Just wanted you to know that you are not alone in your feelings. The love of my life died 6 months ago (1/28/16), and I find my situation perfectly described by your words. My prayer to us is that we can hold on when there is nothing to hold on to, and that day by day the pain and grief will lessen. I am going to meet with a counselor on Wednesday. My thought is that if I have to do that to have someone listen to me, then that is what I must do. Hugs, Bill
  14. Marg, I know of what you speak, and my prayers are with you and your mother. My heart goes out to you. Thank you for sharing.
  15. My prayers are with you Marg. Bill