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  • Birthday 01/07/1951

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  1. BillT

    Happiest Day - Najšťastnejší deň

    Hurrah! Blessings, Bill
  2. I came back to write a proper thank you, but darn, the keyboard is still blurry.
  3. Dear Janka, Thank you. Beautiful. I have to go now.
  4. I hear you Darrel. Almost 2 1/2 years for me too. One day at a time. Better than one minute at a time - that place we all have been. One of my Mary Kay's favorite sayings, embroidered on a pillow in our bedroom "Live laugh and love". Wish I could.
  5. Janka, that is lovely. I feel you and cry with you in your grief.
  6. I hear you Rldownes, I can't offer any advice, as I am in a similar state as you described. My Mary Kay has been gone for 28 months. Just recently (last couple of months) Loneliness has entered my life and at times seems able to absolutely crush my spirit. I think that is going to push me toward interacting with other human beings in general, and with single women in specifically. How I'm going to do that? I haven't a clue. Now I'm as you described, "I don't want to be alone the rest of my life I want to feel love again, do I realize it will not be the same as what I had ...." Reminds me of the old Chinese curse: May you lead an interesting life. Ugh. BillT
  7. How very appropriate Janka. Love and prayers, Bill
  8. Wishing you some sunshine and warmth as soon as possible Dear Janka! Wish I could send some to you. Have a peaceful day. Bill
  9. For what it is worth dear Janka, many here share the pain and are wishing you the very best.
  10. I hope it puts a smile on your face, Janka! Hope you are feeling better. Bill
  11. Pauly you have come to this place where people truly understand what you are going through. That doesn't help much, but it does help. Read the posts of others and you will find that there are those who are traveling the road you travel, or have traveled the road further than you have at this point. This is possibly the hardest thing that we do in life, continuing on when our every reason for living has been taken from us. The love of my life was taken from me just two years ago. I won't say that my existence is "better" after two years, but I believe that I am learning to cope. Completely understandable that the holidays have slammed you. Go easy on yourself. Sometimes we can only survive a minute at a time. Anger, guilt, and emptiness follows us. You will encounter times when you will not feel the burdens as heavily as you do now. Survive this time, one minute at a time. Prayers to you Pauly BillT
  12. Darrel, please always remember that you traded her suffering for yours. I wish you strength and grace. My story is similar to yours, even to the timing. I lost my dear Mary Kay in January 2016 when I traded her suffering for mine. I know in my heart that I acted based on her desires without regard to the cost to me. Strength to you to travel your road, brother. Bill
  13. That is just beautiful. My Mary Kay would have been enthralled. It is as if I can heaar hfer just going on and on about the colors, especially the Christmas scene. She was always so appreciative of everything. I especially like the scene from the castle - the one overlooking the river. Thank you Janka for sharing the pictures with me. Here below is one of my favorite pictures of the Love of my life. Bill
  14. Brad, reading your posts have helped me in many ways, often letting me realize that I am not completely alone in the feelings I have. Thank you for being you, and best wishes to you in the future! Bill