I completely understand what you mean. I lost my father about 3 months ago and I have since lost all motivation. My boyfriend has noticed and even commented on it. My mother went back to work and has forced motivation but it just didn't seem like I could do it. For me though, it has been a silent struggle. Recently, in the last week, I've forced myself to look at my books and read the chapters and do the assignments ON TIME. That hasn't happened since the accident. I know it's hard to hear, it was for me, but forcing a bit of motivation can really help. Don't get me wrong it's hard for me still and I have nights that I have no motivation still but I force it. After about a week, I feel much better. I'm still struggling though. The nice thing about being in college? Free counseling. I know that my dad wouldn't want me to drop out of school but I know I'm not mentally ready so I'm hoping the counselor will help. That may be something that you can look into through your school. I've also found when you're really not ready to do exams, by talking to your professors and expressing that, they listen and want to help in any way possible. It may be worth a shot. Maybe even think through scenarios that could occur while having those conversations that way you can be prepared and not anxious over it all. I wish you all the best and hope that you make the right decision for you.