Dear Enna, wish you well. if I could take the pain away from you, I would. Only time will help but will never fully remove the void in your life. I know how you feel. I had to put my angel down due to health issues and now I will have to do the same with my little baby girl Chihuahua, LILY. she has bladder cancer and is going through chemo but there is no cure. I wish I could tell you there is a magic pill to take but there isn't. However, when I feel the tears coming on, which is 3 times a day, I do think of something that helps me. This may sound insane but it does help. Comes the time, I will close my eyes and take a deep breath in. I will be breathing in her soul which will stay with me forever. When I pass on, the both of us will cross over rainbow bridge together. Again, I wish you an easy transformation and GOD bless, Jeff