BashAndrea

Thanks for the encouragement. I sincerely appreciate it. Today I am grateful to God that my kids and I spent my husbands last moments with him. Because we know that there was absolutely nothing that could have been done to save him. He was so strong, even in his moment of death he tried not to scare us. He spoke to us so calmly. Again demonstrating his immense love for us. I dreamt about him and we talked about his death and where he is. He said he was with me all the time. I asked him whey he took so long to show himself to me and he hugged me tight and told me that he loves me. I physically felt the hug in my sleep. That was the extent of my dream. I am waiting anxiously for another dream.

My husband Bradwin died suddenly in my presence on the 25th September 2016. I watched him suffocate (water on the lungs) gasping for breath and die of a heart attack foaming at the mouth and lots of water exiting from his mouth. I still cant believe that he's gone. I miss him. I ache for him. I long to hear his voice, feel his touch. I talk to him every day using his facebook page as a means of connecting with him. He wasnt a fan of facebook but I convinced him to set up an account which he did. I tell him everyday that I love him and I miss him. I cant handle going home everyday knowing he wont be there. But I know God is in control even of this situation. Still, its painful. I pray for God to speedily unite me with him. One moment I am fine the next minute I break down. Counselling doesnt seem to help. Medication is helping a little though. I can sleep now and my emotions are a lot more under control...