Thank you so much for your replies, iPraiseHim and whyknot. Your comment " At times the shock was so much that the grief took my breath away, I had trouble sleeping, eating, thinking,etc... everything," really resonated with me, iPraiseHim. That is exactly how I feel. I just don't know what the world looks like without them in it. My husband works nights, and I used to go across the road and fix them dinner and watch "Wheel of Fortune" or those Alaska shows my mom loved so much. Since he (my husband) has gone back to work since their deaths, I find myself not knowing what to do with myself. I miss them so terribly. I feel like most of myself went with them. As I write this, I am crying and hoping that someday I feel happiness again. I just can't see it right now. When I finally get to sleep, it's not long, and I wake up to the nightmare all over again. They are gone. I won't see them again. How do I make it through this? I just want my mom and dad back, and I know that's impossible. I wish I didn't feel so scared and lost without them. I should be stronger; I'm 45 for Pete's sake. Again, I can't thank you enough for replying to me. I know I sound like a crazy person, but that is how I feel right now. Blessings and hugs to you both...