Heavens Mama

So beautiful

KayC, I've always said I was the lucky one, she was the most incredible girl. I miss us staring into each other's eyes or snuggled on the couch. the looks I got when we were in the car, the people who would stop us on the street. Omg, she touched so many lives, we were attached at the hip and we loved it. She was able to change many minds about her breed and that was huge.

Thank you for sharing, I can't wait for the day I see my special girl again, she was the best thing I have ever done. Her rescue gifted me another dog, one totally unlike Heaven and I love him very much, he's a big help in my healing.

Thank you both for taking the time to reply to my post. Since joining this site I've started to feel a lil bit more like me. Heaven was a very special pup, she had human eyes that could see to ones soul. There were times we would sit and look deep into each other's eyes and it felt like she knew what I was thinking. Come to find out she did. I learned to speak her language but she knew how to hide her pain, probably because she had to endure so much. I hope and pray that there is a afterlife where we can be with our furbabies once again. Her rescue gave me another pup shortly after Heaven passed and since he is so different from Heaven it was easy to take him in. He's a lil comedian and a great love bug. One day I would love to have another Blue Nosed pittie but not yet. It's way too soon.

I've lost many pets, but the recent loss of my best friend Heaven has hit me like no other. My heart is shattered, every day is a challenge... How do I live with the pain of her loss? I don't want to "move on" or forget, I've actually had days where I can't leave my house... I get In the shower and I start to sob, things go down hill from there. I don't understand why my pain gets worse as the days go by, in the past I'd be sad then mad then numb. I haven't even gotten throw something at the wall mad like I did when one of my cats passed suddenly. I don't know how to handle it and my friends don't know how to help. Sunday my husband and I got into it, he never really let on how much he is hurting, I try to hide my pain from him and I guess he does the same but Sunday we both kind of pounced. back in the shower the hot tears of sorrow just started and they kept coming, I curled up on one of Heavens beds holding her pillow desperately trying to smell her. I cried for hours at the same time texting my gf and the last thing she needs right now is her crazy friend adding to her stress... I got the booklet that came with Heavens remains and found this site.. Yesterday in Florida where I am stuck living a man killed his gf, her father, shot her two young sons and two other witnesses, one of the young boys died this am and his father has been on the news. I'm watching the news bawling for the loss this man feels. If I'm having this much trouble dealing with my loss I can't even begin to imagine how he is going to deal with his. ????

I want nothing more then to believe you are right. I don't want a "next life" tho... I would be so happy if our spirits reunite and remain together for an eternity.

I'm so glad I read your post bescause I completely see my situation in yours. My pittie has only been gone 3 1/2 weeks and you nailed my feelings. I wish someone could say "you WILL be with her again, I promise"

Bless your heart, I had to put down a a rescue for biting my neighbor after the dog Witnessed me crying at loss of my 16 yr old cat and the neighbor demanding to hug me. I am totally convinced the dog thought the neighbor hurt me and she wasn't going to let that happen again, 18 yrs later knowing now what I knew then there was probably no saving the pup who I adored but that didn't make 10/01 any better. Thank you for not being afraid to try to help her(?).

She got her name at her rescue, they said she had been thru so much hell shes in Heaven now. How do I live with the pain of her loss? I don't want to "move on" or forget, I've actually had days where I can't leave my house... I get In the shower and I start to sob, things go down hill from there. I don't understand why my pain gets worse as the days go by, in the past I'd be sad then mad then numb. I haven't even gotten throw something at the wall mad like I did when one of my cats passed suddenly. I don't know how to handle it and my friends don't know how to help.

In August 2014 Heaven, a blue nosed pit bull was rescued from death row, starved, over bred and covered in bites and stage 3 heartworms. I always wanted a blue and from her photos I knew I wanted her... in December 2014 I took her home. She had many medical issues she had to fight due to her past and at the end of this past February I knew I was losing the best thing to ever happen to me. She had a lot of friends and I invited her friends to come see her to say goodbye, we thought we had a good week left but it turned into 2 days. My husband and I took her to our vet and they had a room prepared with a blanket for her, every vet tech was with us, I was nose to nose with her looking into her eyes, she knew exactly what was happening and I told her Dr to go ahead. This wasn't my first time losing a loved Pet in such a humane way, each one is different and as her Dr told me what she was doing I told Heaven how much I loved her, she let out a sigh layed her head on my arm and she was gone. The vet techs, even the Dr was crying with me and her daddy, she was that special. I didn't want to get her go, I played with her horribly cropped ears and held her til they began to cool sobbing into her fur. The week after she died was bike week, I saw so many people who loved her and I cherished each one of their hugs, I wanted to get lost in some, never let go. I just want to bury my head in a friends arms and sob. The day I saw the woman who rescued her she hugged me and I didn't ever want her to let go. Luckily she had important visitors so I had to, lucky for her that is. I know I'm not alone in my grief but I've been down this road before and none of the losses ever hurt like this. I'm so lost without her! She was my fur baby, the Best Thing I Ever Did, the smile on my face. Is it wrong to say that losing family members didn't even hurt like this? How do parents who lose children manage? Some days I feel like I'm going to fall completely apart and my husband will find pieces of me when he gets home. The more time goes by the worse the pain gets... I don't get it? I just want her back.... so bad.. We were recently interviewed and you can read about her life... http://www.ormondbeachobserver.com/photo-gallery/after-years-of-abuse-and-overbreeding-this-therapy-dog-has-found-herself-in-the-right-home-a-senior-home