Kayc,
Thank you for your kind words. My heart and mind say different things. Chansey had many issues and at that moment in time I decided to put her down I said her quality of life is not good enough for her to continue, But what I question now is if I would have made more of an effort, blood and urine tests to see if there were anything to alleviate those issues, maybe she'd last a few more months. The truth is I didn't expect to miss her as much or to hurt as deeply as I do.
"All dogs go to heaven", I pray that is true. I prayed everyday for a miracle to save Chansey and reverse the kidney failure.
Chansey is the love of my life, my heart and my soul. I have a hole in my heart that can't be filled.
I'm hoping time will heal my wound.
Best,
John