I am wondering how you are doing now. You have been through alot of stress being a caregiver and then went right to dealing with grief.
I can relate to you. I have taken care of my mom for 5 years. She is my best friend. I have been so lonely watching her decline. As she lost alot of memories, short and long term, I watched my best friend/mom slip away. I have been grieving for 5 years now.
My mom is actively dying now. It may be a day or a week. It is so hard to know that I will be all alone. Not only have I lost my best friend, but will lose my purpose in life, as her caregiver.
I would give anything to have another year of changing her diapers and feeding her. I miss her so much already.
I hope you are doing OK. And I understand your grief and loneliness. My life as a caregiver, excluded me from having any friends or social life. I don’t know what I will do with myself now.