Kitty, I'm so sorry. You've been through so much in such a short time. It's going to affect you for sure. I'd like to share with you what I do because I think it may help. Several years ago, I began writing in a journal...just a cheap notebook really. I usually write in it at night, but when I've gone through some really tough times, I've also had a small one that I keep in my purse so that I could write in it during my lunch break. I hold nothing back. I just write it all down. It gets it out of my head and honestly feels like I am laying it down. As I do that, I get better perspective and start working through things. If I've ever written anything that I would hate for someone to see, I just tear out that page and shred it. It really helps me and I hope it will help you. It's also important that you make some connections...neighborhood, church, volunteer group. Maybe set a goal for yourself like I'm going to go to one class or church service or organization for one hour this week. Then make yourself go, just for an hour. You might be surprised. I hope things start getting better for you soon.