SummerW

I am so sorry about your mom. I lost my mom a few years ago and I still miss her every day. It's easier, but I do miss her. Because you and your mom were so close, you will probably always miss her, too. I personally think that everything you described is absolutely normal. When it first happens, you have to process it and there is a lot to do...decisions to make and changes. It takes a while for it all to sink in and really feel it. Of course, you would reach out for another relationship. Your mom occupied a huge place in your heart and you want to fill it. And of course you feel broken. You are heartbroken. You have a lot to deal with. More than most your age. I can really relate and I believe that it will make you a stronger person. You might feel like other people your age can't relate or that they focus on unimportant things sometimes because you have had to face serious life issues that they don't understand yet. It will be okay. Is there a counselor or minister that you could talk to? Sometimes it helps to have someone to help you walk through times like this.

Kitty, I'm so sorry. You've been through so much in such a short time. It's going to affect you for sure. I'd like to share with you what I do because I think it may help. Several years ago, I began writing in a journal...just a cheap notebook really. I usually write in it at night, but when I've gone through some really tough times, I've also had a small one that I keep in my purse so that I could write in it during my lunch break. I hold nothing back. I just write it all down. It gets it out of my head and honestly feels like I am laying it down. As I do that, I get better perspective and start working through things. If I've ever written anything that I would hate for someone to see, I just tear out that page and shred it. It really helps me and I hope it will help you. It's also important that you make some connections...neighborhood, church, volunteer group. Maybe set a goal for yourself like I'm going to go to one class or church service or organization for one hour this week. Then make yourself go, just for an hour. You might be surprised. I hope things start getting better for you soon.