Lynda, thank you for writing to me. Thank you for reaching out. I've found a live chat-room that I'm telling as many about as I can. Someone told me about it. It's http://healingafterloss.org They have many rooms, but I've only been to one - the main room. There are so many who have experienced a loss, and they are so loving. It's private and it's safe, and it's free. The registering thing was wierd for me, but everything is strange right now. It has been great to be able to talk to people in real-time. To have someone tell me they are sorry, to have someone send me a hug. At first I felt out of place, because so many had experienced their loss some time ago. But they do help, because they do know. There is a schedule for hosted rooms, too. I've not done that yet. But they have rooms for widows, or people who have lost children - just about what ever one might imagine. I'm hoping to find you and a few others in the chat room sometime, soon. You reached out to me first and I feel a connection. I'm trying to figure this all out. I'm trying not to go crazy. I'm trying to deal with loniliness. I miss my sweet husband more each moment. The pain grows - my heartache swells, and I want him back. Trying to cope, Lissa