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georgek

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  1. Thank you both for your thoughts. Im actually typing this in my little girls room. The sun is streaming in its big and spacious. I got her photos around. Sometimes Im here in the early hours of the morning I think that maybe I will feel her presents But I never do. I found drawings she had done that seem to indicate a circle of life. She shows her self as an angel with an arrow going down a chimney then a baby, then larger then a grave plot with her typical representation of flowers. Then an arrow pointing up to the angel again. I found hidden behind a photo a drawing she had made of each of her pets. A number had died naturally but the pony we sold when she no longer wanted to look after it. I worked away a lot and only came home at weekends. I and my mother in law cut her down. My regrets know no bounds-persuing a career But also I think-as does my wife- how dare she do this. She had everything going for her and everything a child could want-including a stable home and loving parents. The house we moved into has beams every where, I remember joking with her 'this is a good place to hang your self'-bout 2 years earlier....
  2. I listen to myself wail and when i have had enough i stop and wonder, is this what its like for an animal. One day last year the unthinkable happened to my little girl. She was 13 and hung her self. She left no note. I got a wound in my soul 10 miles wide. But I would still rather the pain then not to have known her-every day I wish I could change places with her. Keep thinking there is something I can do to bring her back. Something I have forgotten that can change things. Still cant bring myself to put a stone on her plot. She was so lovely. Inside as well as out. I pray now and I go to Church and I ask that she gets another chance. Its like every sad song that I have ever heard rolled into one. I dont know where to go from here. I will finish
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