lostlamb07

Music can definitely bring back strong feelings. I have a few songs that have special meaning for me. For my dad it's "That's My Job" by Conway Twitty. That song is all about a father being there for his child and it hurts a little because he wasn't able to be there for me and my sisters. The song for my mom is "Love Me" by Colin Raye. That song came out shortly after my dad had passed away and instantly that was my mom's song to my dad. My sisters' decided to play that song at my mom's funeral and ever since then it always takes me back to the time when it was just my mom and us girls. Talking about it is bringing a tear to my eye right now. I also have a song for both of them. It is "Who You'd Be Today" by Kenny Chesney. It helps me reminisce and it makes me wonder what things would be like if dad didn't get sick. I'm the youngest of four girls and i can't help but think if they would have tried to have that boy that they always wanted.

I'm new to this so bear with me. I lost my dad when i was four. My mom did the best she could but she was never the same. Before dad got sick she was a stay at home mom with 4 great girls. All of a sudden she was thrown into being a single parent and having to work. She never stopped grieving until she passed away eleven years later. Her death was sudden but expected. She had stopped taking care of herself and was having a lot of health problems because of that. Because of the loss of both parents at such a young age I can't get very close to anybody because i'm afraid of losing them as well. I even have a hard time getting close to my sisters' who mean the world to me. Does anybody have any advice to get past the worry of losing somebody again. Any comments or advice would be greatly appreciated. Thank you very much.