beckyb89

My heart goes out to all of you. Ron died a year ago after a long illness. Like you I was stuck for a long time in limbo. I cried, I cuddled a blanket that he had used. I was so fragile at first and just felt so lost. Now after a year I don't feel so alone. Ron "visits" me occasionally. I feel great relief that he is not suffering anymore but I really, really REALLY miss him still. Not used to the quiet. sometime I will deliberately not go straight home after work because i just don't want to go home and not have him there. Things have changed since he died. Life moves on and I think how sad that Ron is not there to share it all with me. The biggest change will (hopefully) be a new job this week. Without Ron's income I am having a tough time and I have been looking for a new job. I now must think of me and my future but I hate to move on without Ron. so all I can tell you is hang in there. You will grieve as long as it takes you. It will hurt less in time but it will also be a different hurt that probably never goes away. They will always be a part of our lives. I have not posted here in awhile and realize that I have missed being here and sharing. so peace to all of you and you are in my thoughts and prayers. Becky

Hi my name is Becky. My husband Ron died a year ago. I have read a lot of books since then but the best one I found was "through a seson of grief" It was so helpful and had so many wonderful quotes and scripture passages that I found to be very helpful. Even if you are not interested in the scripture part, just the comments and thoughts were so helpful and many were just where I was and/or am at the time. This book is thru a support group called grief share. The book is by bill dunn and kathy Leonard. I recommend this book to all of you. Peace Becky

Hi have not been here in awhile. But coming up on Ron's one year "anniversary". That sounds so wrong like it is something to celebrate. But with the one year comes a different kind of grieving. I am not focusing so much on how sick he was before he died, now I just seem to think so much about what I miss. His sense of humor, his laugh, his beautiful brown eyes. I am lonely for him. Those of you who have posted here are all young like me and some days I feel like I'm 100. I grieve for those of you with children because I think in some ways that must be harder but in another way you still have a piece of him. but I wish all you you peace and wish you well.

Hi! My name is becky. My husband died in June 2004. I am still trying to figure out who I am without him. He was sick for along time and I am just trying to find my way. I really want to connect with others who understand. I am 47 I feel sometimes like there is nothing to look forward to. But I try to stay positive. I know ron would not want me to be sad.