Hi, I lost my mother & best friend May 5, 2001 to cancer. Her illness was very sudden. She was diagnosed in February & left us in May. My mother & I was very close. We were together everyday & talked on the phone when we weren't together. Althoguh it is almost 4 years I still feel lost and alone although I have 2 children the lose of my mother has left an empty place in my heart. I still have days of deep depression & I don't think I can go on with out her. Everywhere I would go would remind me of the times we spent there. So my answer to that was to move to another state. I moved 2 months ago & still find myself depressed & missing her. I don't know where to turn to since I'm in a new city. I find myself having problems sleeping & health problems. I know I have to be here for my children since my youngest is 13 & really needs me. But sometimes it's so hard because my mother was always there for me to listen & give good advice, now I have no one to turn to. I just hope things get better.
