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I am so sorry. I check this site every day but we had a city wide internet/phone outage yesterday. My heart goes out to you. Losing your spouse is one of the hardest things I've ever been through. It helps to read and post, come here, it's a safe place where others get it and will listen. Grief Process This is not a one-size-fits-all, what strikes us one day will be different a few months/years from now, so please save/print this for reference! I want to share an article I wrote of the things I've found helpful over the years, in the hopes something will be of help to you either now or on down the road. TIPS TO MAKE YOUR WAY THROUGH GRIEF There's no way to sum up how to go on in a simple easy answer, but I encourage you to read the other threads here, little by little you will learn how to make your way through this. I do want to give you some pointers though, of some things I've learned on my journey. Take one day at a time. The Bible says each day has enough trouble of its own, I've found that to be true, so don't bite off more than you can chew. It can be challenging enough just to tackle today. I tell myself, I only have to get through today. Then I get up tomorrow and do it all over again. To think about the "rest of my life" invites anxiety. Don't be afraid, grief may not end but it evolves. The intensity lessens eventually. Visit your doctor. Tell them about your loss, any troubles sleeping, suicidal thoughts, anxiety attacks. They need to know these things in order to help you through it...this is all part of grief. Suicidal thoughts are common in early grief. If they're reoccurring, call a suicide hotline. I felt that way early on, but then realized it wasn't that I wanted to die so much as I didn't want to go through what I'd have to face if I lived. Back to taking a day at a time. Suicide Hotline - Call 1-800-273-8255 or www.crisis textline.org or US and Canada: text 741741 UK: text 85258 | Ireland: text 50808 Give yourself permission to smile. It is not our grief that binds us to them, but our love, and that continues still. Try not to isolate too much. There's a balance to reach between taking time to process our grief, and avoiding it...it's good to find that balance for yourself. We can't keep so busy as to avoid our grief, it has a way of haunting us, finding us, and demanding we pay attention to it! Some people set aside time every day to grieve. I didn't have to, it searched and found me! Self-care is extremely important, more so than ever. That person that would have cared for you is gone, now you're it...learn to be your own best friend, your own advocate, practice self-care. You'll need it more than ever. Recognize that your doctor isn't trained in grief, find a professional grief counselor that is. We need help finding ourselves through this maze of grief, knowing where to start, etc. They have not only the knowledge, but the resources. In time, consider a grief support group. If your friends have not been through it themselves, they may not understand what you're going through, it helps to find someone somewhere who DOES "get it". Be patient, give yourself time. There's no hurry or timetable about cleaning out belongings, etc. They can wait, you can take a year, ten years, or never deal with it. It's okay, it's what YOU are comfortable with that matters. Know that what we are comfortable with may change from time to time. That first couple of years I put his pictures up, took them down, up, down, depending on whether it made me feel better or worse. Finally, they were up to stay. Consider a pet. Not everyone is a pet fan, but I've found that my dog helps immensely. It's someone to love, someone to come home to, someone happy to see me, someone that gives me a purpose...I have to come home and feed him. Besides, they're known to relieve stress. Well maybe not in the puppy stage when they're chewing up everything, but there's older ones to adopt if you don't relish that stage. Make yourself get out now and then. You may not feel interest in anything, things that interested you before seem to feel flat now. That's normal. Push yourself out of your comfort zone just a wee bit now and then. Eating out alone, going to a movie alone or church alone, all of these things are hard to do at first. You may feel you flunked at it, cried throughout, that's okay, you did it, you tried, and eventually you get a little better at it. If I waited until I had someone to do things with I'd be stuck at home a lot. Keep coming here. We've been through it and we're all going through this together. Look for joy in every day. It will be hard to find at first, but in practicing this, it will change your focus so you can embrace what IS rather than merely focusing on what ISN'T. It teaches you to live in the present and appreciate fully. You have lost your big joy in life, and all other small joys may seem insignificant in comparison, but rather than compare what used to be to what is, learn the ability to appreciate each and every small thing that comes your way...a rainbow, a phone call from a friend, unexpected money, a stranger smiling at you, whatever the small joy, embrace it. It's an art that takes practice and is life changing if you continue it. Eventually consider volunteering. It helps us when we're outward focused, it's a win/win. (((hugs))) Praying for you today.

No. And I say this only because I believe you need the truth to proceed best for YOU. If you read all of the threads in this section you will notice there are commonalities, that being one of them. Most of these are people who broke up because one of them was grieving a death. Not anyone's fault. And they never got back together. Sometimes strung along for a while, but never ended up back together. Years ago two of them looked like they were going to make it, but they later messaged me that they did not. I am so sorry you are going through this, I know it's painful. My advice is to do things in your best interest even as you realize she is doing the same in hers. You can't focus so much on her now that you neglect YOU. Open your life up to those who are supportive, your family and friends. Seek groups/interests that are like minded, if you like sports or gardening, or books or whatever, be around those who do also. Congratulations on your upcoming trip abroad, it'll be here before you know it!

Sometimes both are needed...🙏🙏🙏

Kevin, You saved a beautiful sweet pup's life! I pray it is a blessing on you and your wife, I believe it will be. Karen good luck tomorrow then! Don't forget to protect your eyes tomorrow during the eclipsed! Marg...to the grgrandson you never met. I understand. Thank you for sharing that sweet refrain.

So you'll be fitted and pick them up? Part of it is the rough terrain. No sidewalks. I was going up an embankment in my yard and didn't go up my usual path, shouldn't have taken a shortcut. Will have to remember that the next time I think I'm 20.

Karen, have they started on your dentures yet? Foot hurts like the dickens, snowing, this is a challenge, can't walk much, hobbalong Cassidy.

Iris says it's plantar fascitis, it's on the bottom of my foot and radiates back. Looks okay, no bruising, hurts like hell. No, no crutches. Hobbling/limping. Yesterday was interesting in my grieving group...every time someone posted the views jumped astronomically. I did one, jumped by 9,000 instantly. Did another, jumped by 6,000. Reported to admin and she contacted those that did the software, they had it stopped within a couple of hours. It was crazy! Then had an issue with someone pretending to be someone new (no posts under their username) but I knew it wasn't as they had a vendetta against the other moderator. I wouldn't take what they said on anyone's behalf so halted and banished them dead in their tracks. I was made admin on my church' prayer group on FB. Admin wanted not to be, found out if you're the one who started the group, FB won't let you step down, you have to leave the group and then come back in as a member. She hasn't yet. Sounds like you need to just find another group of doctors. I try to avoid them other than the crap they make me do once a year. Yesterday pollen count dropped, no longer hot plus it rained (dropped 30 degrees!) but still higher than the nation, it's tree pollen. Got fire built. Supposed to snow today, not much, it's 2:30 am so it hasn't yet. Getting haircut today.

I injured my foot yesterday, today it's way worse, I can't put weight on it, esp. in the kitchen on the marble floor. NOT driving to urgent care out of town! Feels like a pulled tendon, have a compression sock on it, elevating it. May drive down to feed the horse her apple and also Iris' for Kodie's play date. Cleaned out the wood stove and vacuumed, vacuuming wasn't too bad as it was kind of like a crutch. Taking Iris dinner as she has the flu and everyone's allergies are real bad, worse that anywhere in the nation! Pollen yesterday 800! Nowhere is even near.

I injured my foot yesterday, today it's way worse, I can't put weight on it, esp. in the kitchen on the marble floor. NOT driving to urgent care out of town! Feels like a pulled tendon, have a compression sock on it, elevating it. May drive down to feed the horse her apple and also Iris' for Kodie's play date. Cleaned out the wood stove and vacuumed, vacuuming wasn't too bad as it was kind of like a crutch. Taking Iris dinner as she has the flu and everyone's allergies are real bad, worse that anywhere in the nation! Pollen yesterday 800! Nowhere is even near.

My brother got all those things, that's okay, don't need reminders of my mom, sadly she was crazy. My dad I have a couple of things. We lost his snakepot, Peggy had it and when it went to an estate sale, I didn't even think of it, I was out of my mind with grief. But I did get their purple lead crystal ashtray. And the wooden deer I bought my dad. Ran into a couple of issues w/pws today, one was Disqus that I set twice already! Another United Healthcare, they were breached early February, they never let us know, read about it in the paper. A couple more I don't remember.

Thank you for trying to help me!

Found this (haven't made yet): Keto Pumpkin Chocolate Chip Cookies INGREDIENTS · 1 cup almond flour · 1 cup brown sugar monkfruit or Swerve · 1 cup canned pumpkin puree moisture removed, see tips below · 1 egg beaten · 1 teaspoon baking powder · 1/2 teaspoon salt · 2 teaspoons pumpkin spice · 1/2 cup Lilly’s dark chocolate chips · 1/4 cup pecan pieces INSTRUCTIONS 1. Preheat oven to 350 degrees F. 2. While the oven preheats measure out the pumpkin and place it in a paper towel lined bowl, cover with extra paper towels, pressing down lightly. Allow the pumpkin to sit for 10-15 minutes. The paper towels will absorb the extra moisture. Discard the paper towels when moisture has been absorbed. 3. Once the pumpkin has been dried out, combine all ingredients in a medium size mixing bowl and mix until well combined. 4. Chill the dough 10 minutes. 5. Grease a large baking sheet and use a small one inch scoop to scoop the cookie dough. 6. Lightly press each dough ball down so they spread out evenly as they bake. 7. Bake for 14-16 minutes. Allow cookies to cool before removing from the baking sheet. NOTES **Cookies will be slightly soft when you remove from the oven and firm upon cooling, do not overcook.** This makes 24 small cookies for me. Net carbs are 1.2 g per cookie #Recipe https://thebestketorecipes.com/keto-pumpkin-chocolate-chip-cookies/

I'm still tired from those days/nights of changing pws! We went the 100 mile trip to get groceries, took all day, 2 1/4 hours in the store, they've moved everything, out of things, no one to ask, prices ridiculous, it's nuts, plus they overcharged me and I had to stand in line for that, then again as they charged more for the eggs, it said first two but too tired to argue, just got $ back. Came home, put groceries away, took Kodie to Jazzy's, Iris wanted put into her oxygen chamber, did that, finished watching dogs and went home, nice to relax! Had to feed horse her apple first. Had to get firewood in first. Today getting haircut and taking Kodie to the park.

Try this, not same texture but flavors: Keto Pumpkin Mug Cake INGREDIENTS · 2 Tbsp melted butter (0) · 1 egg (.6) · 2 Tbsp pumpkin puree (1.75) · 2 Tbsp almond flour (1.2) · 1 Tbsp coconut flour (1.5) · 2 Tbsp sweetener (0) · 1/2 tsp baking powder · 1/4 tsp cinnamon · 1/8 tsp nutmeg · 1/8 tsp ginger · pinch cloves · pinch salt INSTRUCTIONS 1. In a large coffee mug, add melted butter, egg, and pumpkin puree. Mix well. 2. Add the dry ingredients: almond flour, coconut flour, sweetener, baking powder, spices, and salt. Mix well. Optional: add SF chocolate chips, stir. 3. Microwave on high for 60-90 seconds. Depending on your microwave and the size of your mug, the cooking time will vary. If after 90 seconds, your mug cake is still undercooked, microwave it for an additional 30 seconds. 4. Optionally, top with Keto whipped cream and a sprinkle of cinnamon. 5 net carbs https://greenandketo.com/keto-pumpkin-mug-cake

There were 200 pws, have them weeded down but first had to change them as I don't want anyone getting my info potentially on the dark web. I am so glad he's making you new dentures! Peggy got new dentures but they didn't fit and she's an "Oh well..." person instead of saying something, so she ate w/o them. I sure miss her. I hope your new ones FIT this time!

I feel like He has! I got an email from a company I do business with telling me my pws were on the dark web. I checked the company's msg and the same was in there, I called them and it took an hour to get on the phone with their specialist who assured me the same. I spent up to 18 hours/day the next three days changing my pws. After 1 1/2 days I backed up the info as I can no longer get into Chrome pws to see what they are (believe me I have tried to find out how to reset it to no avail and I have no clue what the pin is nor do I remember ever setting one)...when my backup went awry and all the pws I'd laboriously entered were now wiped out of my carefully tended pw protected spreadsheet. I spent the next 1 1/2 days resetting them and recording them, this time it was harder as I had to use the forgotten pw option! Some of the companies wouldn't cooperate, but they didn't have financial info so that's okay. I did this on 200 passwords! I can tell you I am DONE and backed them up carefully...taking precautions. I attribute my former mishap to eye strain and lack of sleep. I've only slept 3 1/2-4 1/2 hour sleep those three nights. Last night a friend and I asked God for 9 1/2 hours sleep. I got it! I am amazed at a God who helped me through this most daunting of tasks and even gave me what I asked for!

I've been doing it 4 1/4 years and am never going back to my old way of eating! Love it! A lot of people think it's just steak, bacon and salad, not true, I have hundreds of recipes!

Actually will have fires through May, maybe some in June. Love being done shoveling snow, had snow on 5/15 Mother's Day two years ago! Used to be done after first week in April. Then it'll be time to set up window A/C and when the forest fires start, it's a whole new ballgame. Not much reprieve anymore. Never had to worry about forest fires until three years ago, but they manage the forest different now, never had this issue when they logged.

Okay, here you go, found one! Keto 3 Musketeers Ingredients 3 oz unsweetened chocolate, chopped 2 oz unsweetened white chocolate, chopped 1 oz cocoa butter ½ tbsp unsalted butter 1 tsp powdered erythritol ⅛ tsp raw stevia pinch of salt 2 oz egg whites ½ tbsp cocoa powder ⅛ tsp xantham gum ⅛ tsp powdered erythritol Directions 1. Temper chocolate by placing ¾ of chocolate in a microwave safe bowl, microwave on high for 1-2 minutes, stirring every 15 seconds until chocolate is melted. 2. Add butter, erythritol, raw stevia, and salt to chocolate, stir until combined, check temperature with a kitchen thermometer to ensure it is above 115ºF, if proper temperature is reached add in remaining chocolate, if not heat in the microwave until proper temperature is acquired, then add remaining chocolate. 3. Stir with a rubber spatula until chocolate is smooth, there are no chunks remaining and temperature is between 88-92ºF. 4. Once proper temperature is reached transfer chocolate to a pastry or plastic bag, remove a corner so that chocolate can be “piped,” fill half of the silicone mold wells with chocolate, and allow to “set” until firm for ~5 minutes. 5. While allowing chocolate to set whip egg whites until frothy, then add cocoa powder, xantham gum, and powdered erythritol; whip to stiff peaks. Transfer to a pastry or plastic bag and pipe a pea sized dollop on top of chocolate, place silicone mold in the freezer and allow nougat to freeze for 15 minutes. 6. Remove silicone mold from freezer, place pastry bag in the microwave for 30-60 seconds to soften chocolate, pipe remaining chocolate around nougat and place silicone mold in the refrigerator for 10-15 minutes to set chocolate. 7. Remove silicone mold from freezer, remove chocolate from wells, and serve or store in an airtight container, refrigerated for up to 7 days. Enjoy your keto 3 Musketeers bites! 9 servings @1.3 net carbs #recipe https://ketogenic.com/recipes/keto-3-musketeers/

It is only overuse that wears out my body excepting the arthritis and permanent injuries in my hands, those will always hurt. I resort to Voltaren when it's really bad. I don't take Ibuprofen or Tylenol, both raise blood sugar and/or blood pressure. They came and finished the well, weirdly my electrical usage was high that day even though I didn't cook, shower, or do laundry and no heater. I can't imagine what they could have done that used it. They unhooked it and hooked it back up, took them hours, plus buried the line. Thank God that is over with! Hope not to need them again. I threw out my popcorn when I started Keto, don't eat grains. Panther has a catnip toy, Kodie has a million toys has his own bin he keeps them in only I pick them up not him. I knew someone who had a dog that would put his toys back on their shelf when done playing with them, ha! They're predicting snow in a week, we'll see. Hopefully not a lot. Right now I have my car in the carport. Am throwing away a trash bag of stuff every two weeks when the garbageman comes, it's a bunch of work but am trying to clean this place out little by little...will take years at this rate. No where to get rid of anything here, have to make 2 1/2 hour trip to do so! With gas so high, that's rough. My primroses made it through winter snows and freezes, looks amazing! I have recipes for Keto oreos, smores, twix, twinkies, etc but no musketeers!

I thing the #1 ingredient is sugar and what's ironic is my son has been on Keto over five years...his wife and children are not so he has his own refrigerator in the garage. He doesn't even lick his fingers. Not diabetic and likely never will be as long as he's doing Keto. Both sides of family.

We all feel that when we lose someone to suicide, and of course the father you knew would not do that to you...but he didn't do it to you, he wanted out of his pain, whatever was troubling him...but it affected you greatly, also his fiance I'm sure. I am so sorery for your loss. I would encourage you to get counseling. In addition to Marty's great articles, here is another:

Thank you! I can't believe how much my son looks like me and my grandson looks like him! They came and finished the well, made a HUGE muddy mess! Worse than last time! I have no more gravel to put over the mud, and my M/C is tied up with paying them so will have to wait for rock to put over it. No one to rake it anyway, getting old sucks. My neighbor of 40 year died Sunday, found out yesterday. I worked with his wife 19 years ago, my heart goes out to her. She has kids around, that helps.

Went to my son's 40th bdy yesterday and we also celebrated my grandson's 7th from two weeks before, here is the cake my son made him...it's Batman but we dubbed it Fatman. One in London like this sold for $1172.00! And one of the men together.

Oh that sounds just like it! Not enough fat, try fat bombs, I have one every day. I agree and coffee is mine. It'll be my last thing to go. For sure! Very annoying. This morning my mobile phone wants me to set a 6 letter password for Msgr, no thank you! You watch, one of these days they won't let me use it w/o one. Actually they do, they just kept threatening they wouldn't, but I lost mine six months ago, was still doing them then. You were lucky, I didn't hit it so lucky. No, 4 1/4 years and I haven't. I just find a Keto recipe that will take the place of whatever I want. It warmed up a couple of weeks ago and then went back to freezing, may get snow this weekend.