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kayc

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  1. I don't see you are a failure at anything. Value yourself, sometimes we're all we have. And your brother...is that surprising? No news is good news. Something wrong with him, narcissist?
  2. Haha, my DIL hasn't been here since she dropped her six month old baby here for me to watch, that was over seven years ago. Nope, she just wants to use me. I'm 71, how long does she think I can do this? They live three hours away in a very remote unmarked area where GPS doesn't work. I'm comfortable driving to Eugene over an hour away. I have food, just couldn't go buy fresh produce and creamer, finally did this week. i can always eat carnivore and give up coffee if need be. Only time it'd be a problem is like during the snowpocalypse five years ago when our power was out for over 8 days and cut off from the world, no plows, phones, electricity, etc. That was hell. We survived it. My son came on the middle day, hooked up his generator, for a day, after he left it quit. Refrigeratored food all went bad. Couldn't store food outside and attract wild animals but after I got my coolers I could...ever since I store my coolers on the patio in the winter. There was too much snow to reach the storage room where they were. The weatherman didn't predict it, worse than, they said it'd all be north of Salem, ha! Woke up up 4' 5" overnight! 18 degrees. My Arlie was a trooper. A few months later he was dead, inoperable cancer. I love Chrome. Windows 11 keeps setting default to other browsers, I had it set on 10 but they don't seem to let me keep it, change it every day. I've used AVG for years, it's never once let a virus or malware through. Over 20 years ago I had Norton, it let a virus through, it ate everything literally. My son came home from the service, wiped it clean, reloaded whatever windows they had back then (95? 98?) and set me up with this antivirus, and it's free. I also have AdblockerPlus. We're getting a break in the weather but it'll turn colder within a week, from Canada...hoping/praying I can make my son's 40th bdy party and help my grandson celebrate his 7th, all depends on if it snows within the next 8 days. We'll see. Kodie helps me accept my life as it is so much, I can't believe what a difference he makes. I noticed Panther had two matts on his back last night, had to cut them off, I trimmed a bit at a time as I didn't want to nip him and these were really thick. Weren't there last week. He was really good when I did it, held still for me which is a miracle! Windows 11 isn't an improvement from 10 imo but not horribly worse, I just hate how Microsoft is so invasive and takes over, I really hate them. But they're going to force our hand within two years or stop working so I took the plunge.
  3. I hope you have a great time, even with XW there. I'm supposed to go to my son's 40th bdy 3/24, hoping/praying no snow so I can make it! His dad may be there, I don't know, his uncle usually comes to these things.
  4. I had this yesterday, how can you look up a word when you can't think of it! Keto "bread" is a misnomer, can't have it, we don't advise products. We make everything from scratch. I tried making Keto bread but it spiked me, the Keto guy "The Banting King" threw us totally off! I spent $42 on ingredients I can't use. I made a loaf for the neighbors for Christmas, their dog attacked me viciously! Threw me on the ground, I have horrid scars from it, they still itch. I make what is called Keto 90 second bread, love it! And it doesn't raise my blood sugar (BS). Weird how you and I eat nearly opposite to stay alive. You get old and find out what is going to be your lot in life, what you have to do to stay alive, different for everyone, and some have no restrictions. Lucky them. Some get to keep their husbands, I lost mine at barely 51. Most take theirs for granted, not realizing how their life can change in a moment.
  5. Marg, we seem to eat opposite except I can have spinach. Can you have eggs? Tomatoes? Why would they insist on screws at your age? They're nuts! Plus it costs more. (Hence why they insist).
  6. Sometimes temporary crowns show weird colors, but wth! I would NOT be happy! They shouldn't even have grey on their color palate!
  7. My dentist ordered out the bridge, and they made it badly, the dental office installed it and a year later I was complaining about it (front teeth) and they haggled with the place that made it and had them make another one. so glad! It cost a pretty penny (thousands) and no insurance.
  8. Made the long trek to town to get groceries, took about four hours, an hour of it just getting the groceries. Poured rain, instead of cats and dogs, I'd call it tigers and bears! Not a lot happening here but uneventful sounds good. Snowing here tonight/tomorrow. Can do without that. Karen, I can't believe they may your teeth buck! Should do over again, the bite can't be right. My first bridge was that way, made them redo it a year later.
  9. Hi Karen, I see you online! How are you doing?
  10. I am so sorry for your losses, and that you feel unable to share what you went through and thus what you're going through. I'm glad you have a therapist and hope they will be of immense help to you. Feel free to share here when you feel more able. I am so sorry also for having to surrender your kitty, perhaps it was just too soon. Perhaps this might be of help to you? When is the right time to get a new pet?
  11. I encourage you to open your heart up to your new pet, I went through this with Arlie and I felt slighted on his behalf when anyone said how cute Kodie (my new dog) was...eventually I realized it wasn't a slight to Arlie and I could love Kodie for who HE is. I still love Arlie, I always will. My relationship with Kodie doesn't detract from my relationship with Arlie and the things he brought to the table were unique and will forever be missed, just as what Kodie offers is unique to him. If you aren't ready to scatter the ashes, hold off. There is no time frame. Your husband needs to understand that you may not be as ready as he is and honor that.
  12. Because I shoveled snow for 12 hours and at the end was angry to discover someone had plowed snow into behind my car (it abutted snow in the front so I couldn't leave with my car after they did that) and at the top of my driveway where I had shoveled so the mailman could drive up to the mailbox and back out onto the road. They shoveled someone else's snow (pack) there and it was like trying to move ice, high, and hard. Let me tell you, if they were doing this all by themselves at my age, they'd have been mad too. It was obvious I had shoveled these areas and they messed it up badly. Another hour shoveling I didn't need.
  13. Believe me, I shoveled it off. And I have caught it from so many people, tell me they wouldn't have been too in my shoes. 12 HOURS SHOVELING?! I'd like to see any one of them do that and then face what happened to me, happen to them.
  14. Kevin, I hope with you. No precip today, for which I'm thankful. My whole body needs to recover. It's coming back Sat. night.
  15. Wasn't 6"... Tuesday woke up to 8" more, plus 2 more daytime. Got everything shoveled and some !@#$%&! shoveled other people's snow behind my car and in front of the mailbox where I'd just spent two hours hard at work (including my paths). I was so mad!! I spent 12 hours shoveling snow including the redo, but theirs was pack and tall. Seriously I wouldn't have been responsible for what I would have done had I caught them! Also walked down to feed the horse her apple but she was too cold to come out of the barn, I don't blame her. Let Jazzy out when Iris was gone and walked back there again to do it. Iris forgot my HWC and Kodie's hot dogs I'd asked her to get Monday. Did her dishes again. Took a shower and did laundry. Made turkey soup and deboned it. I've been eating OMAD this week and have seen great diabetic numbers but kind of miss eating two meals/day. Although my energy can't be beat. But am surprised I'm not still asleep. Have had 46" in 8 days.
  16. Tuesday woke up to 8" more, plus 2 more daytime. Got everything shoveled and some !@#$%&! shoveled other people's snow behind my car and in front of the mailbox where I'd just spent two hours hard at work (including my paths). I was so mad!! I spent 12 hours shoveling snow including the redo, but theirs was pack and tall. Seriously I wouldn't have been responsible for what I would have done had I caught them! Also walked down to feed the horse her apple but she was too cold to come out of the barn, I don't blame her. Let Jazzy out when Iris was gone and walked back there again to do it. Iris forgot my HWC and Kodie's hot dogs I'd asked her to get Monday. Did her dishes again. Took a shower and did laundry. Made turkey soup and deboned it. I've been eating OMAD this week and have seen great diabetic numbers but kind of miss eating two meals/day. Although my energy can't be beat. But am surprised I'm not still asleep.
  17. I also use informed delivery. Filed taxes 2/20 and got OR refund already, IRS said they'll have it to my account 3/6-11. At least they approved it. Next year won't be fun as I have to start taking IRA and I wish to God I didn't. I still haven't recovered what I lost after 11/9/21. It's going up little by little but all I want is to recover my loss. Too late to change it, esp. w/election year. Don't want it to take a nosedive right before making a change like that. I wish to God Biden had stopped that rule. Why do they care if we start taking it out or not! I do not like Stellar Jays, they seem like bullies, I used to have all kinds of birds until them, now just their constant screeching, ugh. Started snowing about 3 or 4, snowballs! Seriously, I'd make one pass on my 40' ramp with my shovel and it'd be time to do it again! About 6 pm I came in and sat down...woke up to 6" more! Fell asleep at 7 and woke up at 4:20 am, much needed. BS 92, ate OMAD the last few days. It has been running in 70s and 80s so no idea why it was higher this morning, but that's how diabetes is. I'd rather go back to having 100s and eat two meals/day and no snow to shovel! d Haven't gotten groceries in a month. No 4WD or AWD. Not going to take chances with the roads. Running low on vegetables but can eat carnivore and eggs for a while. Hoping this lets up after today and they plow and this melts. My DIL wants me to babysit 3 days next month (lives 3 hours away), can't do, she's nuts, wood heat is my only source so even IF (and that's a big if) it's not snowing, still have to keep my wood stove going. Not going to come home in the dark and reheat an icy home and that's IF the pipes don't break. She can hire someone or stay home and take care of their kids like WE did in our day. She gets tons of help, we didn't. She makes demands and never any appreciation or thank yous. I know, I've done very little cooking lately but am starting to run out of stuff that's made. Subway has a sale FLBOGO online which is buy one get one free, I'd love to do that if the snow ever lets up. I missed my friend's memorial Saturday, it was hard to miss, I even had an offer for a ride but it was snowing hard and I knew I had to be home keeping up with it, same with Sunday/church. The laptop could be corroding as we speak. Can't put electronics in rice, can only take apart and clean, which I couldn't do with the laptop the way it's made. Why they don't have a separate compartment for the battery I don't know. Hoping and praying it will be okay. You feel responsible for the end, but it's not on you. I think most of us feel that even if we couldn't have known they were going to die, like my husband did. We take upon ourselves even things we couldn't have known or that the doctors were responsible to know/do. I do hope these articles will aid you in getting through your guilt feelings... Guilt and Regret in Grief Grief and the Burden of Guilt Guilt In the Wake of a Parent's Death Address Guilt When Grieving and this video is helpful as well:
  18. Over 36" of snow in the last week (Over 5" in the middle of the night) and I have all the paths dug, mailbox dug to so the driver can get to it, car sort of unburied, will finish cleaning it up later. Not bad for an old lady! Yesterday I had two mishaps, I'd made Keto Brownies and took them out of the air fryer and it slid right off the rack and kept flying...onto my marble floor. Nothing stands a chance against the marble. The 8x8" glass dish shattered into shards all over the kitchen floor and even into the next room. I yelled at Kodie NOT to come in and put up visible reminders for him. I swept and swept and vacuumed and lastly went over it all with wet paper towels. The other was I spilled coffee on my laptop, yes, the keyboard. I was in shock but I acted quickly and turned it over, not caring where else it went, just get it off of THERE! I grabbed a dishtowel and started soaking it up from underneath it, shook it so it'd come out of the cracks. I was finally satisfied I got it all, nothing else was coming out even when I put the edge of kleenex in between the letters. I wanted to take the battery out and clean it but couldn't see a way into it. My old one had a way to open it and change the battery if needed, this one appears sealed. So here's hoping...so far it seems okay. This may not sound like a positive but it feels good to have all of it behind me! Hoping for a more mundane day today. We just got back from feeding the horse her apple.
  19. Got it all done last night and woke up to 5" more, Lord knows what today holds. Tomorrow predicted worse than today. Ugh.
  20. Seems that's all I do lately, Kevin. Got my car dug out last night and mailbox, top of driveway, path to street, 100 ft to firewood...now it's snowed again.
  21. My tires always go through this in the cold, and I hear you with the winter, shoveled until bedtime, predictions were WAY off, today much worse, got a foot last night, too much for my little snow blower but will do my best with it waiting for it to get lighter outside. Right now my back hurts.
  22. And there is no time frame, keep them until you're ready.
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