I want to thank all of you who replied, it had always helped to know I am not alone, well as alone as I feel sometimes. I have been reading through some of the old posted messages and it is strange to see some of my feelings wrtten down although not by me. I wasnt really sure that this was the thing for me because I have always felt like we need to pick ourselves up and do what needs to be done but I never pictured this!! I have been strong for our daughter but its nice to have others to talk to. Thanks again.