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Happy heavenly birthday,my beloved Jan!

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My beloved Jan,

today belongs to your birthday,sweetest honey!I´ve brought you the most beautiful roses as I always do to you...There was such a rainy day here,but God has listened to my prayers and sitting at your grave I´ve felt a sunshine on my face and birds were singing all along...It was you who has brought the sunbeams to let me know that you´re always by my side...I was crying again...I couldn´t help it...You´re missed forever,dearest sweetheart!I went to church and praying a lot for you...I was very sad,sitting so quiet,telling God to hold us both close to him for eternity...because I can´t live without you...I´m crying now...please,forgive me the tears I cry...it hurts too much...I don´t want to make you sad...you´re my everything...I want to be with you in heaven...my immortal beloved...

Love you,adore you,need you...want to be with you as one again...give me your hand and we´ll never be apart...

Forever yours,
Janka

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Dear Bill!

I´m sorry for meeting you this way...I´m sorry for going through so much pain I also have known already 4 years,6 months and 15 days...I´m sorry for the loss of your beloved one...This month is very hard for me...my beloved Jan´s anniversary...his heavenly birthday...my birthday that we used to celebrate together...May...month of love...it hurts so much...You´re in my prayers...

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Thank you Janka,

My sweet Mary Kay died just four months ago.  

I am crushed.  I cry and I scream in anguish.  Does not matter.  To never hear her voice calling out "I'm home", or saying "I love you!" or "You're MY Baby!"  creates a hollow in me that is bigger than me.  I am nothing but pain without her.  The thought of a future like this is abhorrent.  I have no family, and the few friends I have are moving on. I pray that the Lord will take me soon and quickly.

Love and prayers to all

Bill

 

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I am so sorry for your pain, Janka.  What a special moment you had with sunshine and birds.  Thank you for sharing!!  I hold onto all of those moments when the wind blows or a butterfly hangs around for awhile.  I hope you have more of these beautiful moments.  

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On ‎26‎.‎5‎.‎2016 at 4:14 PM, Cookie said:

Janka:  So sorry for your pain.  I can tell how much you loved Jan.  You're in my thoughts....say a prayer for me.....warmly Cookie

Thank you,Cookie!

It´s so sweet of you.I keep praying for everyone and always will.

With love Janka

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So sorry for what you are going through BillT.  It does hurt so much and I grit my teeth a lot.  You are not alone; many of us know what this is.  Hugs to you....Cookie

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On ‎27‎.‎5‎.‎2016 at 3:42 AM, Jgillen said:

I am so sorry for your pain, Janka.  What a special moment you had with sunshine and birds.  Thank you for sharing!!  I hold onto all of those moments when the wind blows or a butterfly hangs around for awhile.  I hope you have more of these beautiful moments.  

Dear Jgillen!

I´m very sorry that you must be here with us and send you from the heart many hugs to lessen your pain and make you feel better at least for a while.Our loved ones are always near us,hold us and help us in everything we have to go through until we meet them again.

They love us,too so much and every chance they get,they try to remind us.

With love Janka

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Love to you, Janka. I always love the signs that my Jim is still with me. Not as I would like him to be but he is with me. 

Bill, we are your extended family now and will be here for you always. 

Anne

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"The white bird by the window met the May,so sunny,

singing about your Birthday you had,sweetest honey,

such restless,dishevelled and very small,

but a huge courage wasn´t missing at all,

the happiness is something that can´t pay the money."

 

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forever yours,

Janka

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On ‎26‎.‎5‎.‎2016 at 3:18 PM, BillT said:

Thank you Janka,

My sweet Mary Kay died just four months ago.  

I am crushed.  I cry and I scream in anguish.  Does not matter.  To never hear her voice calling out "I'm home", or saying "I love you!" or "You're MY Baby!"  creates a hollow in me that is bigger than me.  I am nothing but pain without her.  The thought of a future like this is abhorrent.  I have no family, and the few friends I have are moving on. I pray that the Lord will take me soon and quickly.

Love and prayers to all

Bill

 

Dear Bill,

my heart aches for you when I remember my first months...absolutely devastating though I had no chance to be just me myself...I had to go to work the next day after I got to know about my worst loss,the hardest wound,mine and mine only...and it was just my work that helped me a lot and keeping me busy all along...Now it´s 4 years and 7 months tonight and it doesn´t seem to be much better...although I was able to cope with immense pain walking by my side so far,I can´t cope with terrible loneliness walking hand in hand with anxiety by now,hitting so suddenly and without invitation,so unexpected all the time...It´s just the loneliness that became another best friend of mine...and I can tell you that is very persistent and faithful friend...the loneliness...Dear Bill,I do understand...I also have no family,no children,just 3 best friends of mine,forum full of kind people who are the only ones understanding how it feels and my faith in God I can´t be without anymore...However those best friends of mine have never lost a loved one and they live their own lives,too...I do know what you mean...I still pray to God for being with my beloved Jan as soon as possible...till then I try to live the best I can to be worthy of being in heaven as one with him again...He is the best,my most beautiful,only one and irreplaceable forever...I still cry for him...like a little girl...and always will...

I´m so very sorry for what you´ve been going through,Bill...and send my love and prayers to you...

Hugs from Janka

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I am so sorry for both of you, Bill and Janka.  Thanks for sharing Janka.  It's been a year for me and I still have unbearable loneliness and anxiety.  I would not wish it on anyone, but there is some small comfort in knowing I am not the only one feeling those things.  Sometimes, you look around and everyone just seems to be going on with their lives in such a contented way and you feel very isolated.  Anyway, hugs to you both....Cookie

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This thread of mine that I started 2 years ago brings all of those memories back...

It´s after my beloved Jan´s birthday and mine too...It was so hard,and yet very happy,because I spent it on the boat with one best friend of mine and my beloved one was watching from above...The day was warm and sunny and knowing that he´s in heaven now put a smile on my face once again...There´s no other place for someone like him at all,because he was the best,most beautiful and only true love that I´ve ever known in my whole life...

Happy heavenly birthday again,my love!

May God bless you for eternity...

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Forever your Janka

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