Hi, My name is Beth. I think we may have alot in common. I too was a single mom who raised my son, Thomas. He was my only child. He was killed in a car wreck on March 6 2005. That was 4 days after his 20th birthday and on my 45th birthday. I will never celebrate my birthday again and I really do not want to celebrate anything anymore. How do we go forth. I used to look forward to the future. Living a long healthy life, watching my only child marry, raise a family and have a wonderful life. Now I hope I do not live to a ripe old age. I do not want to feel this pain for the next 30 years. Why am I still here, why did my precious son lose his life right when it was starting? What am I supposed to look forward to. Why should I get up everyday. I pretend to be doing better, but it is a facade. I wonder if I will every feel better? I wonder if you also have these feelings. Will we every be happy again? I don't know. But I have to believe I will. I DO believe in Heaven and GOD. I know that if I try to leave this earth before God is ready for me, then I may not be able to spend eternity with my Thomas and my Lord. That does give me HOPE. I pray alot and talk to my family about THomas all the time. It helps when you have a strong support group and faith in the LOrd. I always told myself that is something happened to Thomas, I would not survive. But I am still here and it is a struggle, but here I am. Again, WHY???? I know I have not said anything to ease you suffering, but, maybe it will help to let you know that I feel for you and maybe we could share our thoughts if you would like. I will pray for you to find peace and for God to help you wiith your pain. God Bless and keep you, BEth